I Bid Thee Come

2010 is at an end. today is the last day you know. and as i look back, i think 2010 has been a great year. its great because things were good AND bad. i've grown wiser, smarter (i hope) and more matured. i've met awesome friends along the way. and moved on with others.

if there was one thing that i would always remember of 2010. well, i remember you. :) i've missed you during the holidays. A LOT! we've moved on huh? :) from friends to...what are we now? i don't know. but i don't mind. i like where we are.

next year will be an exciting year for me. 2011. new prospects. new opportunities. :) i'm looking forward to it. its gonna be hard and stressful and full of pressure. but i'm excited. AND i can't wait. :) if its hard, and you get it done...its even better.

well, 2011. here you come. and i welcome you with open arms. i'm excited. i've got hope for a bright year ahead. its gonna be wonderful. like i said, new opportunities. new friendships. new relationships, maybe? :D what else? i'm moving on with my life...

I WOULDN'T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY! :)

December

:) a gloomy afternoon. i've not seen the sun this whole morning...i miss the morning sun. hahaha. well, i've been studying...not travelling anywhere this year anymore. planning for next year! :D hahaha. Europe anyone? hmmm, i would really like that...especially after my exams.

Don't Get Too Cocky

don't get too cocky.

my words for my self. :) whacked up holidays. haha. its been going pretty well. Youth Camp is this week. after that, i don't think i'll be having anything much. hmmm, been studying a little. getting back my rhythm.

: bahhh, i'm so bored. i wanna travel. next year, to the US maybe? :D hahaha. i would like that. or to London? that'll be nice too. my mother wants to go to China. i don't know. boring place? i hope not. Sam's in China now. funny eh? indian guy in china...he's more chinese than me actually. :

Waiting For The End

i know what it takes to move on...

december. what does that remind you of? christmas lights, christmas shopping, christmas dinners, gatherings...caroling. :D its gonna be a blast. i'm happy my birthday is in this month. hmm, things ave been going steady this past few days. everything is good. i've been getting rest from my schedule. errrr, going to PJ tomorrow. staying till Tuesday. hahaha.

thoughts were spinning in my head

so many things were left unsaid

its hard to let you go...

hmmm, youth camp is next week. i'm stoked. hahaha. we're doing the Guardian Angel thing again. so i'm pretty...well, again, mixed feelings on that. :D its gonna be weird. haha. i hope they don't tie me up to some weird person. hahaha.

this was never meant to last

i wish it wasn't so...

Waiting For The End - Linkin Park

Beautiful One

its monday morning. :) it feels good to be home after so long staying in KL. yea, it definitely feels good to be back. haha. i'm definitely going to fix my skype thingy now. hahahaha. hmm, today and tomorrow will be my rest days...on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday i have to go down to PJ again. so yea, busy busy...and tiring. stayed up till late night yesterday after i came back from PJ. :]

saw Shing Yi and Melissa again after a long time. they haven't been joining our team for quite awhile. :) so yea, its good be back with Team B again. i've been drained physically and mentally now. i need to rest a lot : i dont feel very good...

hmm, i can't wait for evening...i wanna go running and skipping. i've not been doing that for a long time. i miss it. :D my mother just left the house, joash is having his piano exam in Rawang. good luck baby brother!

i hope everything goes smoothly this week. i've got a lot to do. and i have to do it well. ;) i miss someone too. its hard to focus on everything when i'm thinking of that person :) ahh well, i don't mind thinking about that person...and i've got to say, you looked really really good on skype. hmm, what have you been thinking about? don't think too much alright? :) well, you've got to get out of your room more. emo isn't fun! :D take care...

it was nice to see you again. hahaha. i've got to go now. preparations! :)

nothing will ever change that...

Vast Voyage

i'm back. and yes, i had an awesome time. :D we had loads of fun with little kids. naughty kids, big kids, little kids, good kids, and cute kids...every type of kid was there. haha. had loads of songs and activities. i'll tell you, i'm totally exhausted right now. i'm really, really tired. :

hmm, Youth Camp in 2 weeks. practice is tomorrow. hell, i'm gonna bummed when i get back. i need to exercise. haha. i got a scale in my room now. :D really gonna need to use it. i feel fat. : real real fat :

we're gonna rock tomorrow. its been a power packed week. next week is gonna be power packed too. i can't wait for the week before Youth Camp. i just wanna rest quietly. read a book, lie down and drink some cold orange juice.

well, i'm done. tomorrow my team is ON. more work for me. : *sigh* the sacrifieces we make. but at the end of the day, its worth it.

Into Your Eyes

into the night. desperate and broken.

finally had some fun today. went out for badminton training today. it was good. met some old classmates too. :] it was great seeing you guys again. hmm, maybe we should go out one day? hmmm, preparing for tomorrow. i'm not prepared at all. i've been...distracted. got my mind set out for next year.

my mother asked whether i would like to go for English lessons from this lecturer in Damasara next year. phew. a lot of travelling up and down. i'll have to stay at my cousins house for most of the week. :] i have...mixed emotions on this. on one hand, staying in Kl is fun. i've got my cousins. but on the other hand, i'll be far away from my family, friends, and everything that i've come to love...

well, i don't think worrying too much helps anyone...i probably will have to go down and stay there next year. : i really need the extra classes if i am to score good grades.

i don't want to start worrying now. i've got time. i'm going to use it wisely. i need to start studying. my mom is right. she's...almost, always right. haha.

into your eyes. hopeless and taken.

we stole our new lives.

with blood pain.

in defence of our dreams.

Insecure

its been awhile. :] its good to be back online after so long going off. i hate cables and i hate the indians who live down my lane -.-''' anyways, again, its good to be back online. facebook and my stories...ahh, this is a good life.

well, things have been really crazy. i mean, i've got ltos on my mind. VBS is this THURSDAY. crap. big big crap. i really need to get ready and prepared. after VBS then i'll have worship practice. on the...28th of Novemeber and the 2nd and 4th of December. :] busy busy. but hey, its fun. i enjoy it.

hmm, 've been going crazy these past few days. i really need to do something for the holidays. i've already cleaned my room. so tomorrow, i'm gonna start...studying. : my mother is forcing me. this holiday is going to kill me *sigh*



can't sleep at night. well, that happens to me sometimes. i don't know why you can't. i hope it gets better soon. well, when i can sleep at night...i think back on things. remember those awesome memories that you have. just let the tension drain out of you. don't let your mind wander around...keep it close to happy thoughts and feelings... ;]


DOM IS AWAKE! its good to hear that. really good. i hope he gets out of the ICU soon. i wanna visit him. *sigh* its really really good to hear that.


well, that's that. nothing much lately. if there were something interesting. i would be the first to post :) don't you doubt it. haha. take care.

I Can't Save You

okay. i've completed my songlist for Youth Camp. *sigh* i'm too stressed out over it. and OMGOSH! school concert is this saturday. and we're not half ready. it sucks you know. the feeling of uncertainty. Pastor Karmen isn't here. that's the worst part of it. i think she provides the CALM and CONFIDENCE. okay. she just called me. Pastor Karmen just called ._.

she sounds very american? i mean, british. haha. she asked me how we all are doing. how is our preparations for the concert. now i'm even more worried. *sigh* this is crazy.

i hope you reply me quicker. i would really like to visit your brother and yourself. :( i'm really sorry about how things are going. if there was anything i could do, i would...*sigh* i'll continue praying for him. have faith nic! its hard, that much i know...but what else can we do?

._. *sigh* i'm stressed. i can't relax...can't focus. there is so much to do, and so little time.


i've been saving, this last words for one last miracle...
but now i'm not sure...

Picteresque

okayyy. now things have been way interesting. first off, the bass was okay when Uncle Rock checked it. so i'm cleared to play, thank you very much. =) then i learned the sickest bass tab for the song "My Redeemer Lives!" heck, its awesome. i love playing it over and over again.

Miss Chai won the Sunshine Girls Search. its not surprising. we always knew she could win. =D haha. she's elated. took her pictures in the newspaper to school today! its her time now! =) we're happy for you. and good job too!

i don't know how Nic is doing. she had her quiz today. i hope you did fine. i hope your brother is fine.

about other things...well, i've been pretty busy lately. Sunday was a long day. had meeting for this weeks duty. then after that for the VBS. meeting was 5 hours. -.-''' i'm so tired now. thennnn, stayed over for awhile at Ernest's house while my parents had their meeting...long day.

VBS is in two weeks. we're rushing like nuts. after VBS, i've got Youth Camp worship practice. this is the worse. its driving me insane. i'm so nervous. my first time leading. i'm also very excited! worship this year is going to be a blast. we're going to make it happen with God's help of course. ohhh yea, Mandy and Pooi Yee are coming for camp. Darryl also, i hope. this is going to be really interesting...haha!

so basically, that's whats been new with me. nothing much and yet, so much going on. i'm bombarded and tired. but its great. i love feeling busy. i love the excitement. so much better than doing nothing. well, i've got to go now. catch up with you guys later...

For You

...
this goes out to you.
i hope you're okay nic.
and your brother too.
i've been praying for you guys.
its hard when you can do nothing
but i guess, we have to accept it
place the situation into His hands
perhaps i could come and visit you someday?
its been so long
and as a friend, i want to be there for you
know that, we'll all stand by you
take care nic.

There May...But

aren't we a great group?

haha.

:] its been amazing what we've been through together.

you guys are the world to me :)

its been awhile since i've updated.

hmm. nothing mcuh actually.

everything is going pretty smooth - in school and outside.

we're enjoying our last moments together eh? ;]

i've gottten my list ready for camp i think.

just need to send it out.

haha.

practice is awesome :D

hmm, loads of DT test in school lately

which i admit, is pretty boring...BUT

its relaxing at the same time

tomorrow is Science :] i lurve science

school has been bustling with activity

preparations for the concert and all

we're nearly there aren't we? ;)

hmm. its been pretty boring lately

i've been doing lots of work

building momentum for next year perhaps

Maroon 5 is screwed up

Mandy Chai thinks her smile is fake! why? o_o

i don't think its fake.

in fact, its pretty original.

i'm stuck with nothing...

such a boring feeling

Darryl's book is so draggy

and i don't want to read Narnia anymore

*sigh*

im suffering.

ahh. miss chai :(

i'm sorry for how i treated you that day

it was terrible

i'm sorry.

there may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning ;)

Running After You

okay. i'm stuck here with nothing to do. not surprising really. tomorrow i'm on with another team. so yea, its gonna be interesting. i don't really know my new team mates. only ernest and oon hui.

i'm tired and i'm bored. i don't want to sleep cause i don't feel very good right now. *sigh* i've got a long year ahead of me next year. do you think i can cope with it? i guess i just have too. i've been waiting for your reply karlynn. its been awhile.

had the practice session today. it was pretty darn good! :D i was really stoked. we all had a lot of fun together. it was awesome! just need more practice for one song. hmm, i'm choosing my songs now. probably taking Take It All and Running After You. its great. looking for some good transition songs now. i'm really excited for camp. my first time leading.

now to some other things. :] it was great talking with you yesterday. i've not felt this happy in a long time. haha. i'm really blessed. i'm feeling great. i probably need to get of the computer more. need to study more now. i'm using the computer a bit too much. :]

really. sleep more. i don't think eyebags are very "charming". you don't want to know what you look like with eyebags. :D

To Know Your Name

2 more weeks before the split

we'll be a different bunch then eh?

well, we just have to make the best of what we've got

and what we've got is another 2 weeks together

hell, i know i'd miss angel like crap eh?

haha.

she's been awesome this whole year

very interesting sitting beside her

:]

preparing for the concert and camp now

youth camp is stressful stuff i'll tell you

leading worship

and choosing the songs are hard work

i think we should take a back seat now

*sigh*

maybe, just stop for awhile and see where we are heading

i don't know whether you feel it

but there's a lot of tension between us isn't there?

well, i'm off to do some work for camp

cheers! :]

Never Let This Go

*sigh*
pastor karmen is leaving soon enough
and then we're on our own to work out the concert...
she has that much confidence in us?

frankly, i think we can do it

we will do it!

this is probably one of the last projects together

we're all going our separate ways now huh?
angel, amos, crystal, and s.horng...
all of them leaving
will we ever be THE senior class again?
without every one of us and them...
we wouldn't be
we'd be a remnant of what we once were...
we'd be the pass...
and yet, the pass fades...
but the future is progress
doesn't that suck?

another thing that has been weighing on my mind...

*sigh*

i probably won't be in school so much next year...

2 days a week only maybe...

and that's for only a few months too...

i'm looking forward to it

and yet, i'm not

do you still feel the same way about me, i wonder?

know that i still feel the same way about you...

i know you wouldn't believe me...

but i do

somethings just won't change

i probably like you more than i have ever had before...

i'll never let this go

:(

concerts...

pratices...

that's how its been going lately

its been pretty interesting

nothing much on my mind lately

*sigh*

things have been...

routined lately...

i've not been sleeping well lately

i don't know why

something's been bothering me

its me...

i've not been up to par...

that sucks...

i don't know

i've lost something

and i'll never let this go...

MIA CHAI!

i'm sorry.
come on.
i mean, i didn't want people to know
besides, i thought you already knew
:]
haha.
please, care.
:] you know i did say i would miss you
and i do!
but i'm having fun
hope you are too!
i'll get something for you...
you're born in the year of the chicken right? :D

Viet - Friday

i think you'll do fine without me
you lived without me for 14 years
you'll be fine :]
if i got lost, i'd definitely give you my brain
haha...
everyday is something new
:)
some days may be hard to live
but if you see pass the troubles
you'll see that life is totally beautiful
for mia :]
you better take care of yourself too
can't win the Sunshine Girls final if you got eyebags
haha...
how have you been by the way?
lets just say i'm missing you
:D haha


but i've got to say
vietnam is an awesome place
really, really hot girls here
they're like everywhere
loads of interesting foods too
a fusion of viet and french cuisine
very very interesting
hmm, second day today
going on borrowed energy
not enough sleep
:]
but things here are so interesting
that it keeps me awake!
its awesome...
its a great place - hanoi
really nice...
loads of traffic
and shops
clothes, clothes, and more clothes
ohhh yea
:]
yesterday we got conned
how cool is that?
some bra-less woman conned us of 5 USD
tsk tsk.


will try to upload some photos maybe later tonight?

Viola!

well, here i am

posting today

i'll not be able to post regularly

but i'll try to post when i do get the chance

its nearly the end of the week

things have been okay so far

practice, work, homework...

everything is going well enough

what can i say?

i've been feeling pretty good

a little tired because i haven't been sleeping much

reading...

AND

thinking a lot

i've not done any thinking for a long time

its good to be able to do so again

*sigh*

hhmmm...

my thoughts lately...

work...

i need to work harder

it seems i've been slacking way too much this year

i need to start picking up the pace

also, many other thigns besides

i've got other things...pressures

goals...

so much i want to do...

so much i want to happen

haha.

okay. here i am

i'm suppposed to put an update for mandy

o.o

so here it goes

a post on Mia --

she's been feeling a little tired lately

due to the fact that she hasn't been sleeping a lot

she has been doing a lot of math this week

which i know she hates...

and she did her H&G today

and passed

i'm sure she's feeling a little better because of that

errr...

winson hangs out around her like he is her son :]

i can imagine who the dad is...

hahahahahaha!

i'd be so dead if i posted his name...

no love lost mandy? :]

you've been awfully quiet today.

probably because of the lack of sleep

but something else seems to be bothering you

errrr...

what else?

nothing much.

so i wouldn't know.

all and all i think she's been having an okay week so far

could be better

but thankfully not worse...

Stuck Like Glue

okayy...

concert time is coming up...

and wow, are we working hard for it

things have been going pretty smooth

i'm dancing MJ yo!

that cool or what?

haha.

its new for me...

but i've gotta say

i'm really enjoying myself

hmm, everything has been going pretty well

things in school are great

the band is awesome

All Day and All Of The Night

is NEARLY perfect

:]

heh...

i asked the others to learn a new song

Smoke On The Water by Deep Purple

its an awesome awesome song

hmm, so everything has been fine

nothing much to talk about

cheers :]

15%

i'm back from camp
came back last night to be precise
3.30 hours in the van
from 4.45 to 8.30
then...another hour home
hell, i am tired
need to go back to the new house to study now
i've been feeling confused lately
damn it...
i've been feeling...
i don't know!


the camp was great
the only two other youths there were shing yi and jane
we've become great friends already
in the course of two days none the less
we sang songs, played games
and even
WROTE songs together
songs about TREES, CLOUDS, CHICKEN TRUCKS AND WINGS
those two girls are crazy
they can eat durians like nobody's business
haha...
all in all everything was okay
except for my really bad vibes i've been having
i knocked my head right before the camp
then the guitar strp gave way and smacked the guitar
it was crap...
talk about bad luck
sheesh


hmm, i head Mandy made it to the finals for the SunShine Girls thing
good job Mia!!!
you did great.
she sang - O.O and danced :D
well, that's her all the way...
i'm going to school tomorrow
though i don't feel like i want to
we've got to practice
a lot
might i add


well, i'm going back now
i need to figure out my thoughts
straighten things out

Rings Of Glory

i get to post again today...
haha...
hmm, well, things are good in school
its been that way lately
everything else is fine
albeit, there's a lot of things to do
i hope i can focus
*sigh*

to mia chai :]
i wish you luck for your SunShine Girls competition
i'll be there for the finals i hope
haha...have confidence
i believe you can do it
just give it your best

camp here i come
i've got lots to do
games, songs, and lessons
its gonna be a blast
so yea, i'll log off first
ohh yeah...
wish me luck...
i need to find amos' lost picks...
damnit...

One In A Milionl

its been a long time coming
but i'm finally able to post again
at least for a few days
hmm, i've been in the new house
things are going pretty okay there
just that there is no internet
so, yea, i've gotta come back to my old house to use the internet
such a bother
but what can i do?
i can't do much about that can i?
anyways...things have been going okay
there's been a lot to do lately
preparing for camp, concert, and all sorts of things
can't wait for October
October is gonna be a month of awesome-ness
that's all i can say
i can't wait!!!

Paramore is coming to Malaysia
wow, things are gonna get really crazy from now on...
its gonna be insane
the amount of stuff to do is going to be ridiculous
hmmm, besides that
other things have been going well too
school has been good
everything else is going good :]
so i'm happy
contented

Alls Fair In Love & War

finally!
its been a great long time since i last blogged
man, its been awhile...
things have been pretty smooth
but hell, i hate smooth
hmmm, probably going back home to study soon
so i'll make my post short and sweet
everything has been going pretty well
hmm, learning new stuff is pretty fun
and i really need to study harder
the fact that my cousin is doing her exams next year is good
then i'll be able to fight with her
hah, its good competition
and competition gets my blood boiling
and my heart racing


other things have been really good too
ohh yea, karl called me cute...
seriously? is that how everyone thinks of me as?
cute? yuccck....
come on. i'm not CUTE...
sheesh, everyone calls me cute...
i think its because i'm younger than them by a mile
those younger than me don't call me cute
pffft. old people...
:]

Lonely Holidays

well, i'm back from camp
and what do you know...
i've got...loads of work to do -.-'''
pffft. this is driving me insane
Kampar was nice
it was pretty much the same since we left it
just more shops
more food, more teenagers, more everything...
i had a pretty good time
but i came back with 0% energy
tsk. tsk.
didn't sleep much...
too much fun with friends
supper at 12.30
then come back and play in the hotel lobby till...what?
3 o'clock in the morning
when i look back at it...
its crazy...
*sigh*
so much to do, so little time


two weeks from now...
i'm helping out at another camp in Johor
wow...
school is up...
concert night...
still planning the songs and all
hmmm, will be staying at the new house tonight
i wonder what it feels like...
haha...
paul might be coming down this wednesday...
so yea...


i wonder how all my other friends are doing...
to tell the truth...
i probably only miss one person
haha...
its funny really...
i only miss one person :]
i wonder how that person is doing
based on her blog, she's not doing very well
why?
take care of yourself

Kings & Queens

my latest post
its been terribly boring lately
i've been playing lots of badminton
that one up for me
hmm, i met Darryl yesterday
he went swimming
i went for badminton
:]
hmmm, nothing new lately
55% percent shifted already
still a few more things need to be moved
soon...very soon
next week in fact
i can't wait
i'm pretty excited


:]
i've not done any of the homework i was assigned to...
pffft...i forgot
*sigh*
homework reminds me of school
i miss her loads! :]
gosh, i miss YOU loads! .
haha

its going to be one more week before we get back to school
-.-'''
i'm really bored
i'm studying pretty hard
i mean, chemistry notes are retardedly boring

I Get Knocked Down

its interesting to see what people do during their holidays...
sometimes i wish my life is like that...
but truly, i don't :]
i like my life the way it is...
staying at home...
writing, lying on my bed and reading
while chewing biscuits...
that's my perfect holiday
:]
i've been writing a lot lately
i find it helps me work my mind
expands my imagination
:] i like that
i've been writing an Eragon fanfiction



that's Arya
probably my favourite character
she's pretty damn hot too eh?



things are going pretty smoothly with the house
everything is fine...
at least, that's what i think
so yea, good night...
sleep tight

No! No! No!

its tuesday.
4th day of the holiday
and so far, so good
i've been doing a lot of writing
getting my story up and running
wow, i've got to say
i really like writing
its peaceful business really
:]
things have been going good so far
i've been writing my stupid notes for chemistry
i did 20 pages today
which is pretty good
its unbelievably boring...
*sigh* such pointlessness
i wish i could keep on writing till tomorrow
but i need to sleep
g'night :]




oh yea, i've just gotten an insane love for 30 Seconds To Mars
they are totally awesome
its great to listen to their songs


my favourite ones
Closer To The Edge
&
Kings and Queens

Harfordshire?

its been a long time since i last updated...
haha, really long
things have been going good so far
up and down i must say
looking on the bright side of things...
its the holidays
but i'm still a little sick, not feeling 100%
but i'm still surviving...
Team B was on in church today...
*sigh*
Rachelle is leaving...
the girl who used to always take care and watch over me
she's leaving for the UK
for 1 year!
i know i'll miss her a lot
we've not been close much
but she used to take care of me so much
we used to be such great friends
:]
we had lunch today
with Ranee and Aunty Michelle
such a great family
its been so long since we last met up like that
Family Camp is coming up very soon
then, going for the Segamat Camp in Johor
Shing Yi asked me to go...
mom said its fine
so yea, i guess i'll be going eh?
long day, long day...
but it still isn't over


i've been reading a lot
Eragon fever has gotten to me again
i'm reading a lot from Shur'tugal Fan Fiction
it keeps me going while waiting for the 4th book...
i'm planning on writing my own story too
i hope its okay
but hell, i sure am
i have always wanted to and i will do it
didn't see Sam today
wait i did...
but we didn't chat up
its the holidays
maybe i should go play football with him
when is the cousins meeting up gathering anyways?
*sigh* so much to wait for
can't wait for the cousins to come again
and lets not forget uncle Ben :]
its never perfect without him

Your Smile

its 12.40
:]
i'm going to sleep soon
but i decided to post something first
*sigh*
i feel gloomy
i'm not feeling my usual confidence
no one to talk to about this...
i can handle this myself
school was pretty awesome today
nicole came back fro a visit :]
it was great
we did pretty much what we used to do
talking...talking...talking...
it was fun to be back like how it was
yet, it was different
hmm...



i'm feeling pretty okay
nothing super special today
i've learned to look at the little things and see much
today i saw her smile :]
what else?
i saw nicole too
i saw happy faces
i saw fun
actually it was a pretty good day
it was pretty good


my song for the rest of the week
Kings & Queens by 30 Seconds To Mars

-into the night
desperate and broken
the sound of a fight
father has spoken
we were the Kings and Queens of promise
we were destroyed by ourselves-

How Far

okayy
just came back not long ago from church
Parent's Nite 2010
it wasn't that bad
i thought it would have been really bad
haha, but it was pretty good
good to see everybody acting crazy
:]
well, well...
what can i say?
i had quite fun playing the games
5 games in total!
it was super fun
i didn't exactly play it
I WAS THE JUDGE
being a judge is fun
very very fun
haha, Darren was the head judge
and Oon Hui was the MC :]
they did well
hmm, tomorrow is Team B again
WOOT!
i think its going to be good


hmmm, forgetting all that
Monday is going to be awesomely busy
:]
work, work, work, magazine, and concert
the only things revolving in my head right now
haha, its going to be a lot
but hey, the more busy you are the more fun you have
that's my motto
the concert and magazine is going to be a blast
i can already imagine it
but...
the end of the year is coming so fast
it wasn't long ago when the year just begun
i can't believe how far we've gone...
how far we've gone indeed...

You!

YOU!!!
you ah...
sheesh, i don't usually speak like this...
but seriously...
its okay
i like teaching you
you should know that :]
besides, its not your fault
i'm just super lazy in school
i don't know why :]
haha, so no worries about your Math or my time

to be honest, your dog looks...interesting...
i won't say weird
cause i know you'll bite my head
but yea, interesting...
:]

have a good weekend too...
doing whatever you're doing...

0.0

my brothers are can be real monkeys sometimes...
they are monkeys most of the time
sheesh, insanity streaks...
okay
time for an update
haha :]
things have been going good
i did quite a lot of work today
enough work
respectable amount of work
not as much as last year
but hey, i'm slowly getting there
work is enjoyable
i've not done chemistry for 2 days :|
need help from my dad
...
which is going to be...
and interesting proposition
:] but hey, physics is going great
i'm finishing the last of my AOP books
haha :]
slowly but steadily
i've been doing good
if i keep it up
i'll be last year in no time
I CAN DO IT! WOOT!


amos coupled up...
O.O

Shoot Me

i should be shot for not doing any work today
in school to top that...
i don't know what happened...
i've lost something after nicole left
i lost the challenge
i lost the motivation
i lost what it means to be the best
...
damn it...
i need to find it
i NEED to...
*sigh*


things were pretty good today
just came back from badminton training
freaking tired...
haven't had dinner yet
so i'm starving too
things are not so bright - education wise...
like i said, i lost it...

socially, i'm doing very good
its been nice :]
really, it has...
friends are awesome, pastor karmen is awesome :]
probably the first time i said that...
hmm, she's been great...
or should i say, you've been great :]
i'm happy

one thing that has caught my attention...
the amos problem -.-'''
i guess i'll put my thoughts right here...
pooi yann and geat yee...

i'm concerned for amos...
they're messing with his feelings...
and to be frank, he thinks they're serious
or at least i think he thinks they're serious
i'm disgusted
i don't know how to describe it...
IMMATURE? DESPICABLE?
i can't find the word...

Lava Lamp

:]
what can i say?
its been going good today
i'm happy
just need to work harder today and tomorrow
hmmm, i did my Math LPT today
wow, if i don't pass...
i'm seriously stewpit -.-'''
i hope i pass
need to go to see my dentist!!!
arggh! my dad's so busy that i can't go
-.-''''''''''''''''''''''''
i NEED to go...
besides, i miss my dentist...
pffft, i don't know why i'm complaining...
haha, well, its 10.15 now
time to get started on my Physics eh?
sounds good to me...


i guess, i should update on my social status too eh?
haha, things have been going good socially
i think things have been going good between us
:]
that's what i think though
other than that...
everything is good...great in fact
i have been feeling very tired lately
but that's never stopped me before now has it?
:D
ohhh yea...
we're going to begin practicing for the end year concert soon...
haha, its going to be a blast...
i hope it is :)
believe it or not - i'm prepared to DANCE
haha.
i think i've officially lost my mind...

also, we're going to be moving into the new house soon
cleaned the windows that day :)
it was pretty fun
i love the windows...
its green in colour...
seriously...
it rocks!!!
will be moving in at the end of the month...
2 months from now...we'll be traveling with Paul & Steph
WOOT!
going to be freakin' FUN!
tired of posting already...
but a lot of stuff has been happening lately...
exciting and cool stuff too!
:)
well, i'll leave it for another post...
g'nights!





oh yea, should i get a lava lamp for my room?
0.0

Insomnia

monday...
a new week
new set of challenges
new obstacles to face
things have been going okay lately
i'm getting fatter, i think -.-'''
damn it...



i'm suffering from insomnia

Maybe, You're The One To Save Me

i thought i'd better post something
...
its been a few days since my last post
a lot has transpired since then
i don't exactly know what to say
things have been topsy-turvy and very confusing
i guess, i have to take care of all these things before they kill me...
the stress and pressure...and emotional baggage is taking its toll on me
i don't understand what i see...
i don't know what you're thinking
*sigh*
but its okay...
we'll just see how things work out :]
i guess, that's part of my emotional baggage
its good to get it off my chest

i felt like crap yesterday
well, i bet the others did also
but i got some counter for that
karlynn replied to my email yesterday
after 1 month...
wow, she's doing really good
:] can't blame her for not replying earlier
i'm just thankful she did reply when she did
hmm, i hope things continue getting better
i'm getting back to my studying stride like last year
last year i worked my ass off
i'm going to do it now
it was bad for my health
but it produced results
i know what i want
i know how to get it
i will get it


"and i said, maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me
and after all, you're my wonderwall..."
Oasis - Wonderwall

Thursdays

thursday...
tired...
really, really tired
:/
but today wasn't such a bad day
it was really good actually
angel was feeling quite happy today
which was a bonus for us...
haha
well, the rest were awesome too
darryl as usual...very energetic
mandy -- she was very busy today
its...quite common these days to see her very busy
its not a big surprise really...
hmmm...
there's been nothing new

to mia chai:
hmm, when i can't focus...
i close my eyes, take deep breaths...
and well, that helps me
music without words help a lot too
:]
i just finished reading her blog
haha...
i noticed a very interesting similarity between her picture and the cartoon girl
how very interesting...
just came back from the debate meeting
not long ago
well, it went pretty well
but the weather wasn't agreeable
so we had to cut things early
i don't think we prepared enough -.-'''
i think we're going to lose
great...
*sigh*



i'm going insane, that's for sure...
my head hurts a lot...

She Isn't Here

its been a long while since i last updated
things have been moving fast
its picking up
i feel better
more confident
lately, everything has been good
everybody in school has been great
hmm, wei man and wei kuen played frisbee with us...
based on what i saw, i think they enjoyed themselves
hmm, i've been studying hard...
i'm loving what i'm doing
and that's good

much has been on my mind lately too
well, i care for her a lot
so i've been feeling particularly great
she's not distracting though
and that's been an extra bonus for me :]


other things have not been so good...
i'm worried
karlynn has not replied my email for a long time
i don't know...i hope she hasn't forgotten me
i'd lose probably the best friend that i ever had
i don't want to lose that
*sigh*
just had one of the toughest training routine i've been through
i won't lie...it was tough
and the end result was...
hell, i feel useless...
its like i never get anything right
he's always better than me, stronger than me...
every aspect that counts...he's better than me
i won't give up
that's for sure
but...
i feel useless
no matter how hard i try to be the best
he's always 2 steps ahead of me...always
damn, i need to stop complaining...
but i just need a place to vent
someone to talk to...
and karlynn isn't here...

I Don't Know

its a saturday afternoon...
its 3.25
and i've been studying for the past 1 hour 30 minutes
not bad for a saturday
i mean, if i can reach my goal of studying 3 hours today
i should have no problems next year
work is going great...
i'm enjoying it
which is good to say
hmm, i'm also learning new things
understanding makes learning a joy
well, things have been moving very fast...
its nearly the end of the year
can't wait for the trip with Steph and Paul
we're going to have a great time together i think
haha...
hmmm, currently i'm doing LA
i don't know why i mentioned it...but yea, just saying
going to do some story reading after this...
it just rained...
which means chances of playing frisbee are pretty low
well, i'll roll out now
i'm bored...
wanna go back to my work
see ya around ;]

Bumblebee

its 7.30
i don't think i'll be able to go online later
so i'll just post now
okayy...so what's been new lately?
well, nothing much actually
its been going good...
very good i think
my work load has been going slightly up, i think
i'm doing more...
which is good...
so today, i'm gonna learn my chemistry and biology
okayy...sounds good eh?

hmmm, socially...everything is going great
haha...
mia chai is so scared to tell me who she likes :D
hmmm, well...what can i say?
just have to have courage!
hmmm, everything is going good!
i still like that girl a lot, you know
i just don't know how to proceed
i wanna take it to the next level
my friends have asked me to find a gf =]
i don't know whether they are just kidding or...
but i wonder whether its wise...
maybe, i should wait for next year?
but if i do, i don't know if she would feel the same for me next year
i mean, i know i'll still like her next year
=] yea, she's awesome...
hmmm, maybe i'll see what karlynn and steph says
they always know what's the best
hmm, i won't worry about it now
so i'll that to bed...
i'm off studying!



seriously, mia chai...Secrets isn't THAT nice.
i like Every Morning by Sugar Ray!
wooot!

I'm Doomed

covalent bonds...
ionic bonds...
metallic bonds...

i'm doomed

Drops Of Jupiter

when i get this feeling...
its hard for me to come back down...
Train - It's About You

sick...again
sorethroat and a horrible cough
haha, nice way to start the week
sarcasm - it rocks!
hmmm, went to church this morning
it was good
met with Eggie and Adrie :)
hmm, after church i went to Paul's house
it was good to see him again
its always good to see him AND steph
she's the sane one of the two
haha...
hmmm, we went out for a movie - SALT
steph enjoyed it, paul didn't, i was...unsatisfied to say the least
i think steph likes the suspense of not knowing
and i like closure
went to McD's for tea
bumped into Angel&bf
sheesh, everytime i go out with Paul - i ALWAYS bump into her
Angel was wearing a very interesting shirt
Pink shirt with the superman thing on it
SCARY!
ahh, it was a great day today
i enjoy talking to Steph
we talked about who we are, what we want to be
and of course who we like...
i guess, she's right
we don't always get what we want
but we can make the most of what we have
i'm happy with what i have
thanks steph! :D
i love you! haha.
i could never live without her
now i can't wait for the trip
4 days with Paul and Steph
that'll be absolutely fun
and by then i should ave my voice
i didn't have my voice today
she couldn't understand me :|
but its okayy...
we talked a lot anyway
haha...
i hope i get better
my eye has been red the whole day
everyone's asking why its like that
i don't know why okay?


i'm happy with what i have
and i don't mind it staying the way it is now
i should stay that way

I Could Really Use A Wish Right Now

saturday! :)
its great.
well, if you're well
i woke up with a crazy sorethroat again
and a slight fever -.-'''
*sigh*
tomorrow will be another long day
i'll be staying at Paul's house till 6
talk with Steph *SMILES*
hmmm, what can i say?
its been a great week
i seriously need to start studying again though
i'm such a lazy ass
so much things on my mind though
but i'm sorting it out
hmm, one thing in particular is my feelings for a friend of mine


i like her very much
but...it seems to be going nowhere
every time it starts to get a little hot - things would cool down again
and then it would be like nothing happened
what can i do...
i can say we're pretty close
we have a...platonic relationship, i guess
hmm, i wish it could be more sometimes
i'm 15, and i think i'm mature enough to handle a relationship
but...i don't know
i don't know a lot of things
like how she feels about me :|
ahhh, well, typing this is giving me a headache
but i need to get it off my chest so i can focus on whats important

well, i've said what i needed
good night
:)
i'm going to study hard from now on
i promise myself.
those are the worse kinds of promises to break

It's About You

Train - It's About You

This is ain't about the things I've done
Where I've been or what I've won
Stand on your corner a thousand time
Lose what I got, keep what I find
It's about you, it's about you

This ain't about the things you say
Or how you make me feel this way
Stand on your corner a thousand time
Lose what I got, keep what I find
It's about you, it's about you

And when I get this feeling
It's hard for me to get back down
When I get this feeling
I's hard for me to get back down

And I, could be
That everything you need
And I know this could be
That free fall back to me

(Verse1)
(PreChorus)
(Chorus)

But keepin' you ain't easy
With everyone that sees me
Telling me to get back on the ground
It could never be easy
Instead of you just pleasing me
You're keeping me down

(Verse1)

And I, I could be
That free fall, come on jump to me
And I could be
That everything you need, yeah
And I know this could be
That free fall back to me

And I could be
Come on jump to me, yeah, yeah
And I could be
Come on jump to me

Fall Back

hmm, its thursday.
how very fast...
it seems that time doesn't slow down at all
even when it seems to go very slowly, its moving very fast
hmmm, well, what more can i say?
things have been slowing down as of late
but not slow enough
i wish i had more time
i could study more, play more, exercise more, do all kinds of things

but we never get what we WANT, we get what we're given...
sad but true
but sometimes what we're given is whats best for us
so it makes nothing getting what we want, less painful
the year is drawing o a close
it feels like yesterday was the day when i stepped into school
time definitely flies
doesn't wait
doesn't stop
*sigh*
its time...
i need to grow up again
i've had my fun this year
its time to fall back
and watch

I Miss You! :) I Know You Don't Believe Me!

well...

what do i want to say today?

the thing i want to do at this moment is exercise.

i know, its hard to understand.

i'm always trying to be the best.

anyways, today i stayed at home and rested.

i just realized what i'm really good at cooking...

OMELETS!!

i love eating eggs...i had 5 eggs today!

how cool is that?

i wish i could have gone to school today...

but mother didn't let me

so i had to stay at home

i know, its for me to get better

read stories the whole day...

did half my physics work

so it wasn't that bad!

hmmm...can't wait for tomorrow

get to see my buddies again

I MISS YOU! :D

haha, i know you won't believe me...

but its true

hmmm, well, i'll go and do my work now...

i'm so lazy

*sigh*

i need to be more prepared for next year

Passion!

i've got a new passion
its called Parkour!

l'art du deplacement
the art of movement

Pizza, Sleepover, Fun, Friends, & Work

right...
hell ya'
just came back from shian's house
stayed over at his place
very nice, very very nice...
it was probably the funnest thing my DG has done this whole year
we had PUZZINNI SWEDISH PIZZA
super awesome!!!
its a very special pizza
not the normal, boring Dominoes or Pizzahut
hmmm, there were about 16 of us at the dinner!
haha...
we had fun! loads of fun...
hmmm, 9 of us stayed at Shian's house
err...Dagan, Darren, Ashton, me, Shu Wei, Summer, Janelle, & Cherrie
hmmm...that's a lot of people
i'll skip all the un-necessary parts
we had fun
got to know each other better
i also got to know about ShingYi
worked with her on Saturday, doing the YouthBoard
it was fun
XD


well, tomorrow is a school day again
its a new week
the excitement is over
its time to study
O level's next year
i'm going to do well...

You're My Best Friend Too

:D and today was the day
well, its been a good day i guess
it really had its ups and downs...
but all in all, i think it was really good
highlight of the day - well, probably the fact that Dancelicious won for the dance again
third year running...
well, they rock at that dancing thing
it was awesome.
hmmm, uncle ben upped his ante with some teeth plucking
well, it was really good
SCARIFIED! yea!
hmmm, what else? errr...
that was practically all
remind to prepare for my stand-up really much next year...
this year was horrible - stand up comedy wise
but its okay...there are just some things that i can't do
i've got to learn to accept it
haha, the important thing is that we enjoyed ourselves today
we really did...
for one, i enjoyed the car ride...
Mandy, Amos, Pooi Yee...
they are great company
though Mandy doesn't talk much
but they're great
learned new stuff too...
Mandy hates the sun
Amos gets freaking nervous
nothing new about Pooi Yee
haha



the week is gone
the excitement will fade
so i'm enjoying it while its here
its the end of the week
its time to rest...
i'll be going to my DGL's house tomorrow
for dinner and an overnight with my friends
its gonna be fun...we're gonna have pizza
and all kinds of good stuff


You're my best friend too you know =)

Shine

its nearly time...
its 8.35 on a thursday
a few hours before the competition friday
i'm quite nervous
usually i'm more nervous than this...
but i have a fever and a bid bad headache
so yea, i can't feel very nervous right now
hmm, well, things have been going quite okay
our group has been improving
and learning
i hope we can pull it off tomorrow
i mean...
i'm not very confident in my ability
also, the prospect of doing stand-up comedy tomorrow
well, its tying knots in mine stomach
even the headache and fever can't bring it down
*sigh*
i wish the best of luck to all the contestants...
its our time to shine
i sure hope we do

Why Do I Feel Like...

school days are starting again
well, its been suck-ish so far
i wish i could talk to karlynn about it
she would understand
so much problems, fear, factors that needs to be taken care of
it makes life harder than it should be
but life never is easy
i don't know...i just need a place to vent out my frustration


i'm disappointed.
things have not been going as smoothly as i planned
i mean, its not reaching its peak...
its not being the best...
not perfect
i can't live with that
*sigh*
hmm, we're having a big problem with the guitars also
damn it...
i hate just thinking about it
amos' guitar isn't working at all...with the church amp
my guitar, that's another matter all together
its not matching with the song
*sigh*
i hate that...
i don't know...
can't place a particular feeling to what i'm experiencing
its something new, undefined...
its a mixture of frustration and disappointment



but looking on the bright side of things
i think, or at least to me, my stand-up is progressively getting better
just got some more stuff
i hope everything works out well
hmmm, school has been...
like i said - suck-ish
all geat yee's fault
X.X
however...
some things are going well
i mean, friendship wise
things are going well with everyone
hmmm...why do feel like i like somebody?
its hard to address feelings like that