Time Is Running Out

i think i'm drowning
asphyxiated
i wanna break this spell
that you've created

you're something beautiful
a contradiction
i wanna play the game
i want the friction

you will be the death of me
you will be the death of me

(chorus)
bury it
i won't let you bury it
i won't let you smother it
i won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out

i wanted freedom
bound and restricted
i want to give you up
but i'm addicted

now that you know i'm trapped sense of elation
you'd never dream of
breaking this fixation

you will squeeze the life out of me

(chorus)
bury it
i won't let you bury it
i won't you smother it
i won't let you murder it

cause our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out

you suck the life out of me

(chorus)


i love this song so much...
anyways, had a crappy week in school...
i've been really tired...
need to do some soul-searching...

Forecast for tonight:Dark

*snore*
well, mia asked me if i've updated my blog...
which i havent been doing faithully...
well, *sigh* theres nothing interesting to put in...
my life is all about order and routine...
well, most of it is...and i hate it...not spontaneous, not fun...
hmmm...well, school has been a bore as of late...
my friends are...well, i dont know...they're great...
but at the same time...they can be a total pain...
its a sort of love-hate relationship i think...
i think i'm turning...stupider...like my mind cant keep up with my work...
*sigh* little things seem so hard now...
like starting a conversation...
or laughing at a joke...
its been...crappy...really crappy...
but what the heck...i cant do nuts about it...
hmmm, some good new is that...
well, THE Nicole Lim will be visiting A+ for a day i think...
thats like....OMGOMGOMG!!! :D
talk about excitement...
haha, it will be splendid to have her back...
even if its just for a day...
well, i've done my share....
and i'm tired...
i really hope Nicole visits o a Friday instead...
i'm not going to school tomorrow...

Flying...

its 10.30...
and its still noisy...
well, im feeling really worn out...
like an old man...
im really enjoying my math...
its such a nice thing to get my new book...such a relief...
anyways, today has been a boring day in school...
things have been suck-ing hthis past month...


hmm, went out to exercise today...
running...damn, it makes you feel so free...
feels like flying...its an awesome feeling...
i love the feeling, the motion of arms and legs propelling you forward...
makes me feel alive...
things have not been going very well this past month...
and Karlynn is too busy to help me...
so i guess i have to go through stuff on my own...
running is an escape...
it feels so good...






night.

Tight Rope Walker

*sigh*
well, it nearing the end of april...
and im...well, im...bored...
i've got no direction...
and the feeling is shit...
feeling lost...
well, thats the usual...
school has been a...i dont know...
there is no consistency...
no stability...
and the feeling sucks...
like everything can fall off your feet any second...
its very...disappointing...
work wise...
well, its not going so good...
again, no stability...
its awkward...
its like im balancing on a tight rope....

Emanuelle Mimieux :D

okayyyyy...
sunday is drawing to a close...
tomorrow is my math test...3rd test...
please pass...
i feel like shit thinking about it...
its nerve-wrecking...
so yea, today was a good day...
team B was on today...
ermmm, rachel and ranee didnt come today...
mel, ashley, shing, kae yi, and gideon came...
so yea, a good day today...
i did reinforcement... :/ seriously, dont ask...
ermm...yea, going to study for my math...
so i'll be going now...
ooohhh, had percussion class today again...
made our shakers...celine is sick with chickenpox...
its totally laughable...




cheers... (:

All I Want To Do

wow...its been a while since i last updated this blog...
*sigh* well, things are the norm...
nothing very special...
oh yea, my grandmother's birthday was on Saturday...
before was youth...
had pizza :D it wasnt all that bad...
ermm, percussions class on sunday...its a blast...
im really enjoying myself...
well, funny...
my mother asked me whether i would like to go for vocal classes...
...sounds weird...but wth, of course i'd go...
i made a promise to myself to take up new challenges this year...
im not about to let myself down...
its a monday school day...
i failed my math...47.62% contrary to everyones belief...
misplaced hope i guess...i've been rather hopeful this past week...
well, yea, thats my update...
till next time...




(:

Entrails

did my bloody algebra paper today...
i think my entrails are going to fall out...
*sigh* dead man walking...

I Stand In Awe Of You...But You Don't See That

so its a new week...
*sigh* things are so wrong sometimes...
i feel...torn...
its funny...i despise my incompetence and lack of ability...
and no, im not in depression...
its just everything is so glum and sad...
just read Karl's email today...
she's down too...and im...well, i dont know what to feel...
everything is wrong...the way seems lost...or maybe its twisting and turning...
and i feel...what the hell do i feel? i wouldnt know even if my life depended on it...
miserable? i dont know...i just wanna be alone...
in a quiet place...
but we never get what we want do we?
school sucks...my LPT's are shit...
i cant seems to score a good score...
now i know what Karl meant by under-achiever...
i TOTALLY feel like it...
its funny how i tell her not to feel like an under-achiever...when im feeling like one...
im a freaking hypocrite...
disappointing, frustrating, and downright saddening...
thats what my grades are like...
*sigh* i feel like breaking something...

New Beginning

ahhhaa...
whatsup folks?
i know...its been awhile since i last posted so yea...
well, i've just had a change of heart...
i just figured that life is so short...
and that i wont be able to enjoy it fully...
therefore...im going to do things that i never done before...
perhaps, i dont know...join in the church play for Christmas perhaps...
sometimes, i believe, we've got to take chances...
and thats what i intend to do from now on...
no more sitting back at watching from the side...
i wanna be in the game...to enjoy myself and have fun...
haha, i just remember what Joanna told me...
she made a list of 100 things to do before she dies...
i think i'll write about 300 things eh?
i'll seize the day! (:

i hope 2010 goes as it should...
with loads of suprises...and no missed opportunities...
cheers ya'll -- DEFECTIVE out! :D

Post From Some Friends

hey this is celine having fun....
playing some crazy games....
joe is getting crazy....!! - celine

i lost in bleach to sai yuen for like a million times :|
so disappointing..............emmm...
still having fun at joe's house though...*sucks sweet*
stupiddd... - amos

huh? hmm? dont want...- sai yuen

loller...those are them alright...
celine, amos, and sai yuen are at my house now :|
blurrrrrryiiiicallll....
i know...im random...
hold on chatting with shu wei now...
gtg...