Shoot For The Stars

today was not a bad day...
badminton for PE...
it was really fun playing with Angell...she's good...
haha...anway...had a talk with her today..
i really enjoyed it...
talked about everything...
she's a mysterious character...
i find that very interesting...i dont know why...
she's 17...but she seems to have the weight of the world on her shoulders...
she's very stressed out..i know...
i hope she takes care of herself...
anyways...
i had some interesting thoughts...
life...
ever felt that your life is empty?
you get that a lot dont you?
...well, then how do u fill your life up?
how would you describe life?
what must we have before we feel full in our lives?
success? power? love?
i dont know...
if today was your last day...
what would you do?






...im out of words...
i love the feeling of loneliness...
it gives me time to think...
i know its hard to understand...
everyone is like a coin...
everyone has a different side to them...
one side is who their friends always see...
and the other side is when they are alone...
...i find it interesting...
people find sensitivity a weakness...
they are never able to express themselves because they are afraid how one might react...
why?
i dont think sensitivity is a weakness...
its part of being human...
we are sensitive creatures...
yet some people dont express themselves...
...why cant you express yourself?
fear? shame?
life is a gift...
live it to the fullest...
dont fear...
fear is an obstacle to living our lives...
be who you were meant to be...
life is a journey...
enjoy, explore, learn, live...
its never too late to shoot for the stars...regardless of who you are...

~~~~~~if you could live your life again, would you live it differently?~~~~~~



~each day is a gift, and not a given right~
~leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind~
~if today was your last day, and tomorrow was too late, could you say goodbye to yesterday?~
If Today Was Your Last Day - Nickelback




cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrsssssssss....
remember...
life is worth living...
live it to the fullest...
LET NOTHING TEAR YOU DOWN !!!!!!!!!!!!
take care...

August 2nd coming up soon...
im excited...

Leave

shit ass of a week....
i know i'm not suppose to feel like that...
but..i just cant help myself...
i feel lonely...
curious?
dont be...
its nothing special...i've had this feeling for weeks...
but who gives a damn?
no one cares...
i dont want them to care anyway...
i love being with myself...its was always like that...
it always will be...
normal day...nothing special...
100% for my math...
who cares right ?
yea...i know...no one does...
i dont feel like posting anything today...
nothing really special to blog about...
i dont feel 100% me today...
i've not felt myself for the whole week...
the only thing good today was...having a chat with Ms.Angel...
i enjoy talking with her...she's the only person who talks and cares about it...
she's a good friend...

~~~






dont get the hint?
leave me alone...and i mean
ALONE...

...u have a good day...
i'll just sit here...



~all day, staring at the ceiling, making friends with shadows on my wall~
~all night, hearing voices telling me that i should go to sleep because tomorrow might be good for something to hold on~
Matchbox Twenty - Unwell


good night...
take care of yourself...

Tired

so so sooooooooooooo tired today...
i bunked into bed at about 3.30 in the morning...
what da ya call that ?
stupid homework...XD
im like everyone else la...i dont like homework as well...
anyway...
today was not a bad day...
school was fun....more lively...
the atmosphere was good...i mean in school...
i really enjoyed school today...
but the speech part of the day was the killer...
i hated that...
i hate my speech...
anyways...
how many times a day do u think i check your blog Ms. Chrissy?
lets just say -- A LOT...
lolx...haha
i didnt go for my 5km jog today...but thats okayy...
i had an interesting football game with some old chinese acquaintance...
haha...it was playing with small kids...
the score was 8 -1..in my teams favour...
these chinese people use to be the best players in the area...
USED to be...
now....bleekkk...they suck like hell...haha
listening to Broken Strings by James Morrison featuring Nelly Furtado...
bloody awesome song XD...


tired now...going to sleep...
lolx...everyone has been saying i have a bad mood...
they're not wrong actually...
i'm having a bad week...


CHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRSSSSSSSS...

Days

okayyyy...its about 1.27 a.m. wednesday night...
i'm in the middle of rewriting my speech and this is my break...
lazy? nope, no way...
i've had a long day today...it was tough
good things -- D came, Miss.Chrissy was in a cheery mood...what else?
plenty of other things to talk about...
but heck...who cares right?
so tired now...but im not going to sleep anytime soon...haha
some thoughts for the day...
today was ridiculously quiet...
who can i blame for that anyway?
haiiizzzzzzz....sick of going through sh*t like this everyday...
what am i suppose to do?
it will never return to normal...
NEVER...that much i know
all kinds of stuff going around here and there.....
oh yea...haha...
miss. how no.2 gave me chocolate in the morning..
that was shocking...
i was so suprised...
she was like "you want a chocolate?"
i was like "huh? okayy, sure."
haha...thank you...just for the record...it was bitter like HELL...
i help miss.chrissy make her chat box today...
haha...
so pink la XD....but it is very nice...
now she changed her whole blog to pink...
its so sexy =).......thats what i think...DONT get any ideas...
well, someone crucify me...
i gave the book i bought on sunday to D...
hope you're able to sleep man=)...
dont be so scared la...its NOT that bad...

damn...i got some really shocking news from my cousin today...
i could not believe that sh*t...
i was shocked...im still shaken right now...
i feel very sorry for you...i hope you'll be okayy...

lets just say it was unbelieveable...
and really shocking...
i knew her to be a tough and nice girl...
had an interesting name for me...
she called me prince caspian the first time we met...
haha...
i remember that...
anyways...August 2 is coming sooner...i cant wait !!!!!!
i wont tell u why...
i dont want you to know why...its just between me...and ME...
just to write what i did...
hmm~~didnt go for my 5 km jog today...suck la..
had some got practice shots for football..
saw Chuck, CSI:NY, and The BEast today....
awesome stuff...the Beast was the best...
cant wait for the season finale...
but u want to know what im waiting for the most?
House M.D - Ghost Of Girlfriends Past...cant wait for it XD...
WOOT !!!

hope today will be a good day...remember i said it is wednesday now...
anyway...gotta continue writing my speech...
i hate it...

CHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRSSSSSSSSS...

The Weekend & Monday

where do i start?
school...was very quiet...
D did not come...everything was f-ed up...
the only thing good was my chat with Ms.Chrissy...
i really enjoyed it...U HEAR ?!?!?
had football today....
lost 7 -2...WTH...but i just woke up...
didnt go jogging...
so tired...having my headaches again...
zzz....killing me...
did my PLT today as well...
95.54%
screwed la...why so low !!!! ARRRGGGGHHH...
coudl have got 100....
i know i kill myself over imperfections...its not good for health...
but it keeps my standards high...and thats all that matters...

WEEKEND...
okayy...right...
saturday was pretty dissappointing...
it was not one of the best days i've had this year...
had some pretty good things though...
finally killed 500 people for KILLZONE...personal best of 220...WOOT!
besides that...
at night i had a bad "incident"
i was heart-wrenching...pained me a lot...
well...not suprising is it?
i just wanted to sleep and forget the day after that...

SUNDAY....church...
pretty uneventful...had the best lunch ui've had in 5 weeks...
haha...
oh yea...bought myself a new book...
VICTIMS by Shaun Hutson...
got my nerves tingling...
ended like a Sydney Sheldon book...
freaked me out...
i so wanted to screammmmmmmm.....
i also went jogging...
5km...its good to take your mind of stuff u dont want to think about...
well...thats that...
my weekend...

Hot, burning hot...but only for 3 days =D

hey ya'll...its been awhile...
i've been sick for 3 days =)
i know...i make it sound like a good thing...haha
anyway just to update....
it'll be kinda long lets start with...

Saturday & Sunday...
the days i got sick the worst...
its not very often i get sick...i know i sound tough
haha...i enjoy it when i get sick XD
anyway...just to make a long story short
i had the worst headaches, i've ever had in ages...
haha...change the colours a little bit...im finally well again...time to have fun u know...=)
anyway...
oh yea...did i mention about the KILLZONE game ???
i dont think so...
i know you'd be really irritated with the colour change but..bear with me =)
as i was saying...shooting people while you're havin' headaches is not good...
NO NO NO!!! it doesnt happen...
i think i only killed 12 people...usually i kill around a 100++... XD
im boasting now alright ? screw it...
so yea...thats how my interesting day(s) ended...
haha...
pink? im not nuts...its SEXY...XD

MONDAY =)
i didnt need to go to school on monday...
didnt do nuts at home =)
watch TV, watch TV, watch more TV
eat porridge ? sounds pathetic i know...lolx...
i've got a sore-throat..cant be blamed for that now can i ?
sick of the colour change? i think its hip...lolx...
anyway...
oh yea...it was quites an interesting day actually...
after school some friends and i were suppose to go to the bowling alley and shoot some pins...
the stupid bowling alley ---> CLOSED...
haha...ever seen a girl who is scared of heat ? walking about 5 minutes in 30+ C ? it was heavenly...XD
oh yea...i also had an interesting phone call...
my dear Miss.Chrissy of course =)
"Heyllo...HEY !!! How are you? "
i was like..."WOW...which grandmother are you?"
thanks for calling...i luuuuuuuuuuuuurve you =)
haha...so yea...
oh yea...anyone watches House M.D. ??
Lawrence Kutner...one of the characters, killed himself....
i was devastated...
apparently...the actor --Kal Penn--is working for the White House
an ACTOR !!!!!!!!!! come on...u kidding me right ?
no one else to work for the White House ?
lol...





thanks for visiting me guys =)
it was really helpful...
and my dear Miss.Chrissy...
thanks for calling...
and...someone else gave me something special as well...
i wont name the person...but it was a really nice [gift] =)



OKayyy...gotta run
cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrssssssssss!!!!!!!


oh yea...i forgot...will come in and post some stuff...
tomorrow is wednesday...no school...WOOT!
chiiiiaooooooooooo...