Shoot Me

i should be shot for not doing any work today
in school to top that...
i don't know what happened...
i've lost something after nicole left
i lost the challenge
i lost the motivation
i lost what it means to be the best
...
damn it...
i need to find it
i NEED to...
*sigh*


things were pretty good today
just came back from badminton training
freaking tired...
haven't had dinner yet
so i'm starving too
things are not so bright - education wise...
like i said, i lost it...

socially, i'm doing very good
its been nice :]
really, it has...
friends are awesome, pastor karmen is awesome :]
probably the first time i said that...
hmm, she's been great...
or should i say, you've been great :]
i'm happy

one thing that has caught my attention...
the amos problem -.-'''
i guess i'll put my thoughts right here...
pooi yann and geat yee...

i'm concerned for amos...
they're messing with his feelings...
and to be frank, he thinks they're serious
or at least i think he thinks they're serious
i'm disgusted
i don't know how to describe it...
IMMATURE? DESPICABLE?
i can't find the word...