I Could Really Use A Wish Right Now

saturday! :)
its great.
well, if you're well
i woke up with a crazy sorethroat again
and a slight fever -.-'''
*sigh*
tomorrow will be another long day
i'll be staying at Paul's house till 6
talk with Steph *SMILES*
hmmm, what can i say?
its been a great week
i seriously need to start studying again though
i'm such a lazy ass
so much things on my mind though
but i'm sorting it out
hmm, one thing in particular is my feelings for a friend of mine


i like her very much
but...it seems to be going nowhere
every time it starts to get a little hot - things would cool down again
and then it would be like nothing happened
what can i do...
i can say we're pretty close
we have a...platonic relationship, i guess
hmm, i wish it could be more sometimes
i'm 15, and i think i'm mature enough to handle a relationship
but...i don't know
i don't know a lot of things
like how she feels about me :|
ahhh, well, typing this is giving me a headache
but i need to get it off my chest so i can focus on whats important

well, i've said what i needed
good night
:)
i'm going to study hard from now on
i promise myself.
those are the worse kinds of promises to break

It's About You

Train - It's About You

This is ain't about the things I've done
Where I've been or what I've won
Stand on your corner a thousand time
Lose what I got, keep what I find
It's about you, it's about you

This ain't about the things you say
Or how you make me feel this way
Stand on your corner a thousand time
Lose what I got, keep what I find
It's about you, it's about you

And when I get this feeling
It's hard for me to get back down
When I get this feeling
I's hard for me to get back down

And I, could be
That everything you need
And I know this could be
That free fall back to me

(Verse1)
(PreChorus)
(Chorus)

But keepin' you ain't easy
With everyone that sees me
Telling me to get back on the ground
It could never be easy
Instead of you just pleasing me
You're keeping me down

(Verse1)

And I, I could be
That free fall, come on jump to me
And I could be
That everything you need, yeah
And I know this could be
That free fall back to me

And I could be
Come on jump to me, yeah, yeah
And I could be
Come on jump to me

Fall Back

hmm, its thursday.
how very fast...
it seems that time doesn't slow down at all
even when it seems to go very slowly, its moving very fast
hmmm, well, what more can i say?
things have been slowing down as of late
but not slow enough
i wish i had more time
i could study more, play more, exercise more, do all kinds of things

but we never get what we WANT, we get what we're given...
sad but true
but sometimes what we're given is whats best for us
so it makes nothing getting what we want, less painful
the year is drawing o a close
it feels like yesterday was the day when i stepped into school
time definitely flies
doesn't wait
doesn't stop
*sigh*
its time...
i need to grow up again
i've had my fun this year
its time to fall back
and watch

I Miss You! :) I Know You Don't Believe Me!

well...

what do i want to say today?

the thing i want to do at this moment is exercise.

i know, its hard to understand.

i'm always trying to be the best.

anyways, today i stayed at home and rested.

i just realized what i'm really good at cooking...

OMELETS!!

i love eating eggs...i had 5 eggs today!

how cool is that?

i wish i could have gone to school today...

but mother didn't let me

so i had to stay at home

i know, its for me to get better

read stories the whole day...

did half my physics work

so it wasn't that bad!

hmmm...can't wait for tomorrow

get to see my buddies again

I MISS YOU! :D

haha, i know you won't believe me...

but its true

hmmm, well, i'll go and do my work now...

i'm so lazy

*sigh*

i need to be more prepared for next year

Passion!

i've got a new passion
its called Parkour!

l'art du deplacement
the art of movement

Pizza, Sleepover, Fun, Friends, & Work

right...
hell ya'
just came back from shian's house
stayed over at his place
very nice, very very nice...
it was probably the funnest thing my DG has done this whole year
we had PUZZINNI SWEDISH PIZZA
super awesome!!!
its a very special pizza
not the normal, boring Dominoes or Pizzahut
hmmm, there were about 16 of us at the dinner!
haha...
we had fun! loads of fun...
hmmm, 9 of us stayed at Shian's house
err...Dagan, Darren, Ashton, me, Shu Wei, Summer, Janelle, & Cherrie
hmmm...that's a lot of people
i'll skip all the un-necessary parts
we had fun
got to know each other better
i also got to know about ShingYi
worked with her on Saturday, doing the YouthBoard
it was fun
XD


well, tomorrow is a school day again
its a new week
the excitement is over
its time to study
O level's next year
i'm going to do well...

You're My Best Friend Too

:D and today was the day
well, its been a good day i guess
it really had its ups and downs...
but all in all, i think it was really good
highlight of the day - well, probably the fact that Dancelicious won for the dance again
third year running...
well, they rock at that dancing thing
it was awesome.
hmmm, uncle ben upped his ante with some teeth plucking
well, it was really good
SCARIFIED! yea!
hmmm, what else? errr...
that was practically all
remind to prepare for my stand-up really much next year...
this year was horrible - stand up comedy wise
but its okay...there are just some things that i can't do
i've got to learn to accept it
haha, the important thing is that we enjoyed ourselves today
we really did...
for one, i enjoyed the car ride...
Mandy, Amos, Pooi Yee...
they are great company
though Mandy doesn't talk much
but they're great
learned new stuff too...
Mandy hates the sun
Amos gets freaking nervous
nothing new about Pooi Yee
haha



the week is gone
the excitement will fade
so i'm enjoying it while its here
its the end of the week
its time to rest...
i'll be going to my DGL's house tomorrow
for dinner and an overnight with my friends
its gonna be fun...we're gonna have pizza
and all kinds of good stuff


You're my best friend too you know =)

Shine

its nearly time...
its 8.35 on a thursday
a few hours before the competition friday
i'm quite nervous
usually i'm more nervous than this...
but i have a fever and a bid bad headache
so yea, i can't feel very nervous right now
hmm, well, things have been going quite okay
our group has been improving
and learning
i hope we can pull it off tomorrow
i mean...
i'm not very confident in my ability
also, the prospect of doing stand-up comedy tomorrow
well, its tying knots in mine stomach
even the headache and fever can't bring it down
*sigh*
i wish the best of luck to all the contestants...
its our time to shine
i sure hope we do

Why Do I Feel Like...

school days are starting again
well, its been suck-ish so far
i wish i could talk to karlynn about it
she would understand
so much problems, fear, factors that needs to be taken care of
it makes life harder than it should be
but life never is easy
i don't know...i just need a place to vent out my frustration


i'm disappointed.
things have not been going as smoothly as i planned
i mean, its not reaching its peak...
its not being the best...
not perfect
i can't live with that
*sigh*
hmm, we're having a big problem with the guitars also
damn it...
i hate just thinking about it
amos' guitar isn't working at all...with the church amp
my guitar, that's another matter all together
its not matching with the song
*sigh*
i hate that...
i don't know...
can't place a particular feeling to what i'm experiencing
its something new, undefined...
its a mixture of frustration and disappointment



but looking on the bright side of things
i think, or at least to me, my stand-up is progressively getting better
just got some more stuff
i hope everything works out well
hmmm, school has been...
like i said - suck-ish
all geat yee's fault
X.X
however...
some things are going well
i mean, friendship wise
things are going well with everyone
hmmm...why do feel like i like somebody?
its hard to address feelings like that

TaTaTaDa

sunday morning rain is falling...
hmmm, its been a pretty good day
too bad Gideon wasn't there
well, today was good
Team B on again
well, it was fun
today was special i guess...everything went perfectly
ShingYi was perky today
i'm writing about her cause we teach the same class
anyway, she was in a really happy mood...
actually she is really happy every sunday
anyways...had nuggets for lunch
HEAVENLY!!!
the chilli sauce...HEAVENLIER!
haha...
lovely lovely chilli
i've got it!!!!
i'm so happy!!!!

Smiles

hmm...
well, the inspiration behind this post
well, its basically all my friends smiles...
what i think they mean
Angel - she has a electrifying smile
its shows her beauty and grace
its something lovely...
its like looking at fireworks in the sky
its bright, big, and wonderful
Darryl - he has a childish smile
it tells of his "carefree attitude"
it shows that he is still young
not a worry in the world
suffocatingly huge, blindingly bright
Crystal - she has a pretty smile
its like flowers in the spring
very fresh, an amazing sight to look at...
i think it shows a happy attitude
a positive outlook on life, it shows optimism
hope
Amos - whacky and jollu
its like a smile that someone give when he's drunk
its a funny smile - makes people happy
what i see in it is a "i'm-high-wanna-join-me?" thing
it is highly contagious
and it makes one feel very, very good
Celine - she has a bright smile
very, very innocent smile...like a young girl
it shows a young spirit
eager to run off
discover new things, challenge herself
its a smile of everything
and
Mandy - i think she has a very beautiful smile
its a highly reserved smile - its rarely seen
but when it is seen...i think it shows truth and sincerity
it makes you know that something is right...
makes you feel warm, cared for, and loved
like a mother's smile...

hmm, i don't know...
its something that's been on my mind lately
the little things make the world spin

I'm Feeling Good

its going to be a long two days...
well...what can i say?
meeting for CCL's tomorrow at 9 all the way to 4
and then youth at 4 to 6
sunday i'm on duty AGAIN
my parents having a meeting until 6
so i'll have to stay in PJ
*sigh*
i'm going to be very busy...
so yea, very tired...
anyway...things are moving very fast now
need to prepare for my stand-up comedy
its going to be tough
very tough
but its gonna be fun i think
even if it isn't fun, its going to be a mind numbing experience
i hope my work pays off
i'm nervous yet very, very excited
thank you GOD!!!
you answered my prayers!
i finally got a guitar to borrow...
but i'll be able to get it on tuesday only
but damn, i don't care
thank you GOD!!!
i love you ben!!!
i owe you a million tons!!!
i'm psyched and insane right now...
don't have to worry about one less thing
well, i'm going to post another post
its gong to be a different one
(: something more personal
good night

I'm Desperate

okayy...
i'm in a fix
so dead...
need a guitar for the competition
an acoustic plug-in just to be specific
damn, i'm desperate right now
would do anything to get it...
okay...
ernest down - he can't lend it to me
that leaves samuel anthony - electric guitar clean
which chances are --pretty slim as well
have faith
come on!!! please!!!
i'm begging


*sigh*
i need to stop panicking
think straight
and keep my head
ahhh!!!
not working very well
*sigh**sigh**sigh*
so so so dead

Frisbee =) Chuck! Opposite Hand-Writing?

and i am all yellow

well, what can i say?

its drama at its best...

but i should skip that

i wasn't there and i wasn't involve

okay, i'm tired...

had badminton and FRISBEE today

me likee frisbee =)

its quite fun...

not as fun as football or badminton but it ROCKS!

hmm, what more should i say?

hmm, mandy is going to have an Oppostie Hand-Writing Competition

how interesting...haha

she thinks of the coolest stuff ever

i'll leave off at that

i think its going to be fun

i've got nothing much to say today

i talk a LOT too much...

i think i should shut up =D

well then, good night

p.s.- see Chuck up there?

just though i should post it...

my favouritest TV show right now

Purple Boots, Kristin, Tired, Lost, Un-Focused

okayy

purple boots seriously?
that was the first thing darryl said to me when i came to school today
hmmm, i'm unbelievably tired today
watched football yesterday
3 to 5
watched chuck from 11 - 3
man, i love the 3rd season of chuckohhh, yea...
i think i'm going crazy
you know there was this girl from chuck
she's also lana lang from smallville
Kristin Kreuk
she's a total beautyhaha...i know how retarded i sound right now
but what the hell?
she's really pretty



hmmm, anyways...
i'm going to sleep
i don't think i'd be able to go to school tomorrow
i'm tired
really tired
can't focus
i really need to focus but i can't...
*sigh*

Lollipops, Karma, Cancer, and Car Crashes

Mandy Chai!

of course i'll worry about you!

we're friends...

that's what friends do

we watch out for each other

i hoped i helped you in some way

though i think you're still feeling down...

Faker's Smile

doesn't sound exactly happy...

i hope nothing bothering you...

you can share your troubles you know...

your friends will always be by your side...

oooohhhh! i forgot to mention

i saw a new picture on your blog

the one with you smiling and the braces!

just want to tell you its very nice

and i like it!

smiling makes you look very pretty

haha

anyways....

anyways....

anyways....

its been a sunny day

very sunny day today

well, its been an almost perfect day

my team was on duty today

Melissa was present today...she wasn't there last week

she was in Australia

i had a nice, long talk with her

damn, i found out she's very friendly and interesting

she supports Spain (BOOOO!!!!)

and she wants to be a quantity surveyour! (weird but true)

she's great

ShingYi was there too...

she was pretty happy as well

errr, maybe it was because of the lollipops or maybe its because of Cheer-2010

anyways...

its been a good day so far

i'm going to watch the finals tonight - 2.30

YEA!!!

can't wait

Without A Purpose?

i guess i'm just concerned

but i read in a friend's blog

she said she's "living without a reason"

well, i guess i'm just worried YOU think that way...

besides, it sounds pretty depressed

please, don't ever think like that

everyone lives for a reason

maybe you just haven't found yours

but believe me

everyone has a purpose

some know it, some have to search for it first

but even if you don't find it...

you still can't give up

and i was also wondering...

are YOU alright?

i mean, you sound really depressed and sad

you know, you've got great friends

you can always speak to them

i'm sure they would try their best to help you

if YOU read this...you should know that people care about you

and that if you have a problem or if you're feeling down

there are people who want to help you

take care

=)

Grey!

alright

its the end of the week already

*sigh* time flies fast

busy busy...

everyone is busy

well, theres been a lot going on lately

but i don't want to write anything about that

i'll just tell whats been new with me

hmm...where to start?

well, i've been having all sorts of things to do this week

preparing for the Talent Time - i have to take part in the singing and stand-up comedy

its crazy...

so much to do

had badminton today and then Physics class

i mean, i'm going to die if this continues

i have to finish my Chemistry by the end of this year

and i'm not studying!

damn, i think i'll kill myself if i fail my O levels

haha...but besides that...

well, not much

school has been great (:

and i mean that...

everyone in class is great

Wei Kuen has been talking more which is fun!

Darryl - the usual.

Mandy is talking more too :)

well, sometimes only...

but its better than nothing right?

ohhh yea...

i've learned how to play Need You Now on the guitar...

its a pretty awesome song

found it on Mandy's blog

thanks for posting it!

i still can't get over what Karlynn's name for er daughter would be...

Grey! GREY! that's so freaking awesome!

haha

Pointless

well, things have been pretty hectic lately

loads of stuff that require me to use much energy and worry

the Masquerade Party and then the Talent Show for Determination

i'm tired

i know it sounds pretty weak coming from me

its just how i feel i guess

though i'm feeling particularly great this week

things have been going good

Karlynn just email-ed me today

and i'll be damned if i didn't like it

it was very interesting to read...

we talked about possible names for our future kids

one name she listed down for the girl was -GREY!

i was like what the...?? O.O

she thinks its a little odd...i think its a LOT odd

but she's got some really cool names that i like -

Keira and Tamara

haha, one weird boy name - Darcy

hahaha! that's insane

its funny

i enjoy conversations like that

you really get to see into a person

sometimes pointless fun...

can be a real blessing

Toblerone

okayy...
so hows it been?
today i meant
hmmm, my day wasn't half bad
had a meeting today with aunty alice
Ashley, Shing Yi, Kae Yi, and Gideon were there
Melissa is in Australia
and Ranee and Rachel...well, they never come
so yea, it wasn't half bad
hmmm, made an interesting discovery
Ashley likes chocolate...A LOT
and she over-uses the word cute
Egbert will be singing for the Talent Time Competition
so yea, it was interesting talking to him
met Steph today...
no Paul, but i don't mind
i'm happy Steph is my cousin
such an interesting girl
played football in the mud today
now my feet is yellow
even after all the scrubbing
yuck...




well, i'll see ya'll around

Loser Kid

well, then
its a saturday
and i'm bored...
as usual
just had a burger from burger king...
so i don't feel THAT bad
but i still feel bad
hmmm...
i'm bored
hmmm, i've been hearing some funny stand-ups
two new ones i uncovered...
Mitch Hedberg and Derek Edwards
haha, they're comic geniuses
i'm going to listen
see ya.

Wheels by Foo Fighters

i know what you're thinking

we were going down

i can feel the sinking

then i came around

and everyone i loved before

flashed before my eyes

and nothing mattered anymore

i looked into the sky

well, i wanted something better

i wish for something new

i wanted something beautiful

i wished for something true

been looking for a reason

something to lose

when the wheels come down

(when the wheels come down)

when the wheels touch ground

(when the wheels touch ground)

and you feel like its all over

theres another round for you

when the wheels come down

(when the wheels come down)

when the wheels touch ground

(when the wheels touch ground)

know your head is spinning

broken hearts will mend

this is our beginning

coming to an end

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