2010, here i come...

For Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic

its about 1 1/2 weeks before the start of school...
hmm, am i excited...
maybe...but i wish there was another 3 months of holidays...
it would be total heaven...
the holidays have been just awesome!
met up with some old school friends...
made some new ones...
and there's loads of football...
its just been great...
this is the only holiday that i enjoyed...
damn, if only the trip to London wasnt canceled...
i wouldnt have minded school for a month...
but its not to be...
anyways...hmm, having a very busy week...
but its all been good...
going to have some Family Concert...
then the New Years celebration...
Steph's birthday on the first of Jan...
its gonna be good...i'm looking forward to that...
hmm, i hope i can go for the Countdown this year...
but i dont think i'll make it...
screw it la, i just want to watch Sherlock Holmes...
well, here's to 2010...
its gonna be a very busy year for me...
but i'm looking forward to it...
loads of studying...
and after that...freedom...
no more school...college...
next year would be preparation for the next stage of my life...
i cant wait...
life will be good next year...
it will be different...
and i'm gonna love it...
next year will be new challenges...
new friends...new things to do...
new experiences...everything will be new...
i'm looking forward to that...

so bring on 2010...
i'll succeed in 2010...
thats my promise to myself...
cheers!

City 123

took me about 2 hours to make the picture...
i guess i was really bored...
i wonder where i got my inspiration from...
dreams maybe...
i had a good day to day...
just came back from a Christmas Dinner in a friend's house...
bloody hell, his house is huge...with a swimming pool inside...
it was good...
i'm going to work on some pictures...

Hate Is A Strong Word

the holidays have been an exercise in endurance...
endurance of boredom...
pure, un-diluted boredom...
sounds like fun?
but then again...
this week will be a fun-filled week...i hope...
two badminton practices...christmas dinner...
and all kinds of stuff...
its going to be exciting...
its the only thing i have been looking forward to this whole holidays...
...hmm, i feel really sorry for D...
i cant believe she dumped him...
he sounded really sad...
but its understandable...who wouldnt be sad?
*sighs* i really despise her now...
i detest her...

The Spirit Of Christmas

1U today...
stopped and visited my cousin...
the stupid idiot was still sleeping...
i had quite a fun day today...
ate at Subway for lunch...
good stuff...i LOVE subway...
other than that...
nothing much really...
slept for 2 hours after i reached home...
ohh yea, saw Stephanie today...
its been awhile since i last saw her...
she's really beautiful now...
her brother on the other hand...
he's a sad case...haha, but its good to see him again...
well, Christmas is next Friday...everyone is excited...
i dont know...i'm not feeling excited...
maybe not as much as i want too...
well, have a good Christmas...

One Pair Of Candy Lips

cousins visited...
i was really tired today...
we had a good time anyway...
just woke up...slept the evening away...
it was raining...HARD!
can't walk straight...
my headaches have not been really serious...
got an e-mail from her that day...
at least that keeps my spirits up...
hmm...things have been moving really slow lately...
everything has been going around...normally...
haha...i've been listening to John Mayer a lot lately...
i wonder why...
his songs are really good...
cheerss...

Sick

sleepy and tired...
having a fever i think...
have not been sleeping very well...
have been sleeping at 2 for the past 4 days...
and waking up really, really early...
hmm...played football in the rain...
didn't help my headaches...that's for sure...
just got CS4 today...
its bloody hard to learn...and use...
hope i can learn and i hope i won't give up...
i'm tired...

*Sigh*

quiet b'day...

The Scientist

*sigh* tired, tired...
slept quite late yesterday...
today was not a bad day...
woke up late...
opened my Math book...
first time in 4 weeks...
haha, did a bit of work...
it felt good to do some work...
had football after that...
played football with friends and 2 Iranians...
they were impressive at least...
friendly...very friendly...
listening to The Scientist by Coldplay...
its a nice song...sad song...
funny, i love slow songs...
i wonder why...meaningful?
i cant wait for tomorrow...
going for a meeting with friends...
planning for the Youth Camp next year...
then staying over at my cousin's house...
so yea...its gonna be fun...
i'll be there for a few nights...
i'll maybe go out this saturday...
i hope i will...
need to go out somewhere...
else i would go mad...
i'll cut it here...
sleep well...





well, some of the songs for today...
Stolen by Dashboard Confessional, Fix You by Coldplay, and Thunder by Boys Like Girls...
great songs by great bands...

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

tiring day today...
haha, everyday is a tiring day...
hmm, tomorrow will be interesting...
going to play football with some iranians...
well, i've still got no plans at all...
this holidays have been really boring...
i hope i'll go to my cousin's house this tuesday...
its been awhile since i last stayed with him...
its going to be fun this Tuesday...
his group will be planning the Youth Camp for 2010...
and i know his whole youth group...
great group of people...
hmm, other than that...
i've got nothing on this whole week...
maybe some badminton, i'll go see what D has been up to as well...
and yea, nothing special this week...
so...i'll end it here today...
if something interesting comes up later...
i'll put it up...

Switchfoot - Gone

Disappointment

its been awhile...
well, i decided to post something today...
because well, because i've nothing better to do...
january seems closer...
but its of no consequence to me anymore...
the trip was canceled...
well, its like this...
the reason why i WAS so excited about jan...
was because on the 24th...
i would be on a plane to London...
staying there for 5 weeks...
sounds fun? hell, it sure is...
but ahh, somethings came up...
and well, i'm not going anymore...
disappointment is something i've been living with...
*sigh*
well, thats about it...
...the holidays have been interesting lately...
i've been doing some work, carrying stuff...
its good...takes my mind off things...
everything seems to be going fine...
i'll end it here...

That's What You Get

High And Dry

its tiring...

damn, badminton training is tiring...

hmm, just finished not a long time ago...

my back hurts!

today was good...

things have been going really well these few days...

and i'm happy and feeling good...

hmm, havent gotten into contact with any school friends lately...

but i dont mind...

everyone is doing their own thing...being with their friends...

taking some time off from they're schoolmates...

funny...i'm not missing a soul at all...

i've been really preoccupied and busy lately...

planning...and working...

its good that i'm doing something...i hate being idle...

well, yea, i've been feeling really UP lately...i feel great

haha, for a few reasons...

miss ginny is one of 'em...she's great...

and my family...

the only people i need...

anyways...tomorrow i'm going to school...

going to arrange some tables for the new class...

i can't wait for the end of the holidays...

then 20 days to my dreams...

*sighs* the days pass by agonizingly slow...

geez, i'm trying so hard to shut up...but i can't...

i'm so excited...after tonight, there is no turning back...

can't wait...

now, lets turn away from my excitement...

you might drown in it...

i've got tons of it...

hmm, i've been spending loads of time in front of the com. and PS...

met some friends today...

had some football...

its been ages since i last kicked a ball...i totally suck at football now...

all that aside...
i can't wait for tomorrow...
because everyday brings me closer to my dreams...
cheerss!!!



everyday brings a new set of challenges...
and also new oppurtunities...
take those oppurtunities...seize the day...

Goot - Read My Mind

Sometimes...

"sometimes the nerd gets the girl..."
Chuck Bartowski


too bad, i've yet to get a girl...
haha, anyways...
i hope tomorrow will be interesting...
and i want it so badly...
arggghhh!!!
g'night...



Stay With Me by Colbie Caillat & Use Somebody (cover) by Pixie Lott
are my chosen songs for today...
have a good day tomorrow...
remember, everyday brings new oppurtunities...
Live Well, Laugh Much, Love Often

CHUCK !

what an awful day...
haha, if you heard me say it...
you would know it was dripping with sarcasm...
but my day wasnt very good as well...
woke up at about 12.30...
then i found out that my hope of it happening was not very good...
suddenly things got very bad...
*sighs* but she says be flexible...
i guess she's right...
i dont blame anyone if it doesnt happen...
its not her fault...
oh wells, other than that?
had my dental appointment today...
played some Playstation...
then TV...
i feel so empty...
its so boring at home...
there is hardly anything to be done...
wait a second, its time for Chuck...
gotta go for awhile...
YES!!!! CHUCK !!! im so happy all of a sudden
everything is forgotten...NOT...

Its A Thing

well, its the third day of the holidays i think...
and hell, it has been really, REALLY boring...
darryl and celine hanged out at my place for awhile...
and then badminton...and dinner...
and now this...
what a boring day...
but it wasnt all bad...
watched a movie called Deception...
it was good XD
hmm, besides that...
I'm also VERY VERY happy!!!
omg, i cant believe it...
and hell, i cant wait for January...
im so excited...
its like torture, counting the days...
one by one by one...
its so exciting, the thought of it...
haha, anyways...
things have been going normal...
nothing special...
well, maybe ONE thing happened...
it was a shock...
i dont know...
i've been thinking about it...
loads of conflicting emotion...
i dont know how to deal with it...
its...a...thing...
anyways...
hmm, no interesting calls from anyone...
just Playstation in the morning...
movies in the afternoon...
and MSN and blogging at night...
how bored can you get?
but at the same time...
its kinda relaxing...
not school, no noise...just myself...
lonely, yet oddly...peaceful...
i'll cut out now...

When It Rains

Sleepy

a tiring day today...
Paul's birthday...
Happy B'day to you...
and some other interesting stuff...
traveled to rawang today...
had lunch...
killer bill...
300++...
never eaten lunch for 300$ in my life...
talked with friends for some time...
its holidays now...
we were making plans..
hmm, other than that...
holidays...
thinking...
i dont know which to choose...
also...
nah, never mind...
i hope things go well...



just say it again, and mean it
Paramore - When It Rains

The Present

its one day after the last day of school...
still haven't wrote anything major about Nicole yet...
for those of you who dont know Nicole is...
i'll tell you...
she's my school's first graduate...
and she's a great friend...
wait, i meant -- GREAT friend...
in CAPS...
well, i've known her for 3 years...
in that 3 years we've been friends...
good friends...
and now, i hope great friends...
well, its been three interesting years...
three great years...
i hope i've been a good friend...
though i know thats far from the truth...
haha, maybe an interesting friend...
but not a good friend...
well, i'll always remember YOU...
i remember our first REAL conversation...
it was about THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA...
during redemption...
that was our first real conversation...
i remember...
hmm, you're a smart, intelligent, though maybe not as witty as i am...
just kidding...
maybe you are, but you just dont show it...
you've been a great example...
you may not know this...
but i look up to you...
you have a good brain and a good heart...
you've shown that many times...
i respect you for that...
the first year we met...
it was an interesting experience...
everyone held you in high respects...
you were a novelty...
and hell, you were intimidating...because of your smarts...
but after a couple of months...we slowly realized that you're just like most of us...
just that you're much smarter and much more humble...
you're just great...
you're also more humble than i am...
and that has always made working with you...
a very interesting and excitable experience...
away from all that...
everyone in our class has made a place in their hearts for you...



well, everything i'm trying to say is that...
and what everyone has been trying to say is that...
WE LOVE YOU...
I LOVE YOU...



thank you for everything...

Fix You

when you try your best but you don't succeed
when you get what you want but not what you need
when you feel so tired but you can't sleep
stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

high up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but if you never try you'll never know
just what you're worth

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

tears stream down on your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
tears stream down on your face
and I

tears stream down on your face
i promise you i will learn from your mistakes
tears stream down on your face
and I

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

Maybe, Just Maybe

aww man, today is a day of super ups and downs...
everyone seems to be on edge...
everyone is tired...
incapable of smiling...
i wonder why...
but its none of my business to know...
hmm, the concert nears...
and everything is not ready yet...
i'm really scared...
and nervous...
and my mind is causing turmoil...
i've been thinking...a lot
but today wasnt all bad...
today is one of the happiest days of my life as well...
IF it works out...
which i believe that it will...
i hope it works out for me...
im so happy...
unbelieveable...
anyways...
i hope things get better in school...
everything seems to be on edge today...
problems, problems...
it WILL get better...
hmm, i'll end it here...
i hope we can talk soon...
its nearing the holidays...
and you still have not told me about your adventures...



"i gave myself the shivers..
and thats what you get when you think about her..."
Sweet Talk 101 - Cute Is What We Aim For

Sick

S-I-C-K

hmm, im really tired...

past days have not been kind to me...

anyways...

i've got a fever, a sore throat, & im coughing like hell...

and this sunday is the concert...

hell, i hope i'll make a quick recovery...

your voice

was the soundtrack of my summer

do you know you're unlike any other

you'll always be my thunder

i said, your eyes

are the brigthest of the colour

i dont want to ever love any other

--Thunder by Boys Like Girls

songs for today...

You Make It Real - James Morrison

and

Thunder - Boys Like Girls

Made For You

Made For You by OneRepublic XD

their newest album Waking Up...

Stars

maybe i've been problem
maybe i'm the one to blame
but even when i turn it off
and blame myself
the outcome feels the same
i've been thinking maybe i've been partly cloudy
maybe i'm the chance of rain
and maybe i'm overcast
and maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

i've been thinking about everyone
everyone, you look so lonely
but when i look at the stars
when i looks at the stars
when i looks at the stars
i see someone else

*****

yea, great song...

Stars by Switchfoot...

love it...

i just came back from church...

and just learned how to solve a 2X2 Rubik's Cube XD

gotta go...

I'm Wasted

patience, took you for everything
looked like a diamond ring
you are so much longer
that made sense

apathy in disguise
crept on you like a spy
hurt you in ways
you cant describe

back to the start now
i wont let you go this way now

honesty, is what you need
it sets you free like someone to save you
let it go, but hurry though
there's undertow and i don't want to lose you now

alright, sit down and spill your heart
lets start very start
'cause i can see by your eyes
you're wasted

your energy comes and goes
you taking your time, you know
nothing can change whats happened

so, back to the start now
i won't let you go this way now

honesty, is what you need
it sets you free like some to save you
let it go, but hurry though
there's undertow and i don't want to lose you now
dont wanna lose you now, now

oh, my, look at your bright stars fade so
how much can you take?

honesty, is what you need
it sets you free like someone to save you
let i go, but hurry though
there's undertow and i don't want to lose you now



someone to save you

Blurry

nicole has graduated...
she graduated yesterday...
i'm happy for her...
she did well...
i attended her graduation...
it wasnt just a graduation...
it was a concert, done by the Chempaka USJ Centre...
it lasted for 2.30 hours...
about nicole...
she was really nervous...
i could tell...
she was speaking with a funny accent...
and she was drinking water like nuts...
-.-'''' there was one girl in the concert...
her name was Jane...
she reminded me of a friend...
anyways, it wasnt one of the best concerts i've seen...
but it was good enough...
hmm, reached home at about 12.30...
late!!! and now i'm very tired...
woek up at 12.30...
really tired...
and blurrrry...
i'll end it here...


song for the day for me...
Stars - Switchfoot...
confused...

It Drives You Crazy

i guess i was bored...
jennifer morrison...from House M.D.
you've got to know its my favourite tv series...
she's hot XD
thats important...

Someone To Save You - One Republic

love this song!

Another Way To Die

its been awhile since i posted anything...
so i'll try to post some stuff today...
well, its nearing the end of the year...
everyone is preparing for the concert...
we're doing a very long script this year...
so its gonna be hard...
hmm, this year...i'm gonna being a british secret agent...
so well, i've got my british accent...
haha...cant wait to see alundra in her dress XD
haha...she's a good actoress...
its fun to act with her...
the rest? not so good...
except for nicole...
she plays the villain very well...
hmm, we're gonna be working hard for the last week...
also nicole is graduating this friday (tomorrow)...
yea, gonna see her...
gonna miss her when she's gone...
cant talk with her anymore...
she's like the only intelligent person to talk with...
i might get insane...
but...its sad that she has to go...
it felt like only yesterday since i first met her...
the Chronicles Of Narnia was our first real conversation (:
so yea...
anyway...i've gotta run...
cheers !



i know its been long...
but i've begun to listen to Another Way To Die...
its simply nice XD
Alicia Keys & Jack White...

Lifeline

i've been looking for a lifeline, for what seems like a life time...





Papa Roach

Letter

hmm, had a good day today...
competition day...
it was nice, REAL nice...
hmm, more people than i expected came today...
the overall competition was good today...
and after that was good as well...
the abundant grace centre brought a very interesting group...
USJ as well...
and chempaka...
met my cousins, uncle, and some friends...
had a real good time...
right now im listening to songs...
basically, not in the mood for anything right now...
so i guess i'll take my boredom no my blog...
have been listening to a lot of old songs lately...
Hoobastank - The Reason
Dashboard Confessional - Stolen
Daughtry - Crashed
and some new ones as well...
Daughtry - Everytime You Turn Around
Papa Roach - Lifeline
grear songs...
hmm, i'll call it a night...




"and we all sleep well, and sleep well..."
Dashboard Confessional - Stolen

Daughtry - Everytime You Turn Around

i know you're standing there waiting for me...

The Day

tomorrow is the inter-centre competition for singing, dancing, and singing...
going to be interesting...
if i can even watch...i'll be busy with the computer, sound...and other stuff (:
anyways...
everyone has been wroking their nuts off for tomorrow...
i hope they get it right...
hmm, participation seems to be down this year...
distance and venue maybe...
but i doubt it...
everything was so last minute...
so i dont think many centres got the chance to participate...
other than that...
we'll be working on the end-year concert, 2 days after the competition...
so its going to be a real rush...
im really, really worried...
this year, the school will be doing something really big...
and if we get it right, its gonna be amazing...
if we dont...
we're going to fall hard...
its going to be tough...
but lets not look to far...
competition time tomorrow...
everyone...
its time to ROLL !
greeeat luck...

(:

say it!

SUPER-CALI-FRAGILISTIC-EXPIALIDOCIOUS (:





aces (:

Carly Rae Jepsen - Heavy Lifting

when you look at me the way you do

my fingers tingle

i cant breathe till we're skin on skin

when you look at me the way you do

my life moves in perfect motion

you're doing all the heavy lifting

Under The Dark Skies

its late...
its dark...
its raining...
its saturday night...
my friends are sleeping now...
and i have some time with my thoughts...
hmm, theres nothing much to talk about...
boring day today...
as usual...
had it late yesterday...
bunked in at about 4.30 in the morning...
headaches pounding in full force...
i cant sleep, so i wont force myself to sleep...
nothing going through my head now...
i dont want to think about anything...
im afraid i'll drown...
anyways...had a good time chatting with my friend...
really fun...
she's different...
like no one i've met before...
unique no?
its always interesting chatting with a girl who is so different from the normal...
have been listening to Heavy Lifting by Carly Rae Jepsen for the tenth time...
i love her voice...sweet, soft, yet so assuring...
its been ages since i've heard a singer like her...
thank you karlynn...
i owe you one...
*sighs*

Boys Like Girls - Two Is Better Than One (featuring. Taylor Swift)

i remember what you wore the first day

you came into my life and i thought, hey

you know this could be something

cause everything you do and words you say

you know that it all takes my breath away

and now i'm left with nothing

so maybe its true that i can't live without you

and maybe two is better than one

but there's so much time to figure out the best of my life

and you thought that it got me coming undone

and i'm thinking two is better than one

i remember every look upon your face

the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste

you make it hard for breathing

cause when i close my eyes and drift away

i think of you and everything's okay

i'm finally now believing

that maybe its true that i can't live without you

and maybe two is better than one

but there's so much time to figure out the best of my life

and you thought that it got me coming undone

and i'm thinking two is better than one

i remember what you wore on the first day

you came into my life and i thought, hey

maybe its true that i cant live without you

and maybe two is better than one

theres so much time to figure out the best of my life

and you thought that it got me coming undone

and im thinking, ooh, i cant live without you

cause baby, two is better than one

theres so much to figure out the best of my life

but i figured out with all that's said and done

two is better than one, two is better than one

Its Different

ahh, its not that bad actually...
haha...
im quite happy...
she replied...
its good to hear from you too...
its been years...
hmm, its the end of the week...
tomorrows saturday...
i dont want to talk about saturdays...
its nearing the end of the year...
its hard to focus on work when there is so much going on...
days are passing by really fast...
yet it seems i've gotten nothing done...
im confused...
i dont know...
things seem different now...
almost like i dont recognize anything anymore...
...
nothing suprising about that...
but i dont worry about it...
it'll all be in the past soon...



"when the morning came, i was up before first light..."
Howie Day - Be There

Its Cold

silence is the worse of enemies...
funny, i love thinking...
but i hate it when my mind wanders far...
i dont know whether things are improving...
ermm, life has been pretty up-and-down...
its been a real rollercoaster ride...
school is going good...
everyone is busy with their own thing...
and then theres me...
walking around...sitting around...
moving from one place to another...
yet not belonging to any group...
but it doesnt matter...
i doesnt want that to bother me...
not when you're use to it...
not when you're use to it...



"its cold out there, why dont you come in?"

Screwed

interesting day today...
school was okayy only...
nothing much done today...
had a chat with a few girls from the class...
talking abot my future...
how i would have a wife...
teaasing my friend...
lol...
they said that i'd be the first to have a wife...
cause i've got so many "girlfriends" ...
funny, the longer i think about it...
the more i doubt...
why you might ask?
well, i have a problem with women...
they never seem to stay very long...
...
well...
i guess thats how it is for me...
also...
i had an interesting chat with a friend...
she was having some problems...
it was one of the hardest problems to advise on...
then after that...
she told me something that just spooked me out...
her friend likes me...
she says her friend told the whole class...
i just blew out of my chair...
im spooked...
she seemed innocent enough...
but looks can be very deceiving...
well, well, well...
im in some deep sh*t...
going to sleep over it...
hope i can...




"never get too deep, cause you might drown..."
my song for today...
Howie Day- Be There ---> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=we5U2v2gmMU

Coffee Stains

hey there...
school today...
finally got some work done...
im happy that i did some work...
hmm, the singing competition is drawing closer...
everyone is busy preparing for the competition...
also some of the actors are already starting to practice for the end year concert...
busy, busy, busy...
tired, tired, tired...
hmm, nothing much to talk about today...
im busy looking for songs to use for the play...
its a light-hearted secret agent play...
its hard looking for songs...
i found a few...
Peter Gunn & Kiss Kiss Bang Bang.
just a couple actually, not a few...
hmm, besides that?
well, its been a pretty uneventful week...
haha...true to the letter...
uneventful...


"we are sleeping, but we're not dreaming..."

Carly Rae Jepsen - Hotel Shampoo

we were poor, yea, we were dreamchasers baby...

Never Walk Away

i didnt get to write anything stupid yesterday...
too tired...
slept at 8.30?
haha...
yesterdays church was...interesting...
sat beside the hottest lady in the church...
unbelieveable...
couldnt stop peeking and smiling...
wow...haha
she's really beautiful...
anyways...
nothing much lately...
i've stopped feeling lonely...
hmm, maybe sometimes i do...
but i recover quite fast...
im doing well...
feeling good...
dang, i cant wait for her email...
its usually my greatest joy...
why?
she never walks away...
i'll end it here...
goodnight...




"if you get too deep, you will drown..."

=)

"yeah, intelligent input darling. why dont you have another beer?"

Florence + the Machine - Rabbit Heart

Attractively Random

deepavali today...
sleepy....but its loud outside...
all the fireworks going off...
hmm, nothing very interesting actually...
a classmates b'day today...
oh yea, nicole started her O levels exam today...
anything else ?
nothing much...
want to chat with that attractively random girl again...
funny...i kinda like chatting with her...
even though its like the stupidest chat in the world...
fun, yet stupid, yet fun...
haha...
another paradox...
im oddly attracted to that girl...
funny, thinking about it...
anyways...
its late...
i'll call it a night...

This Is A Gift, It Comes With Price

very funny...
do you ever feel lonely...
even when you are surronded by friends?
*sighs*
its hard to understand...
i feel lonely...
ahh, the paradox of life...
well, at least i know im not alone...
even though you're on the other side of the world...
i know i have you...
hmm, feeling kinda down now...
listening to a new band i found...
Florence And The Machine...
*nods head*
nice British band...
very nice...
it sounds great, though i dont understand their songs...
-.-''''...
hmm, nothing much to talk about...


"this is a gift, it comes with a price..."
Florence And The Machine - Rabbit Heart

Sour Candy - Carly Rae Jepsen

sour candy...endings...

Smile

smiles are infectious

and even contagious

smiles can be coy

or blatantly outrageous

a happy grin can convey

love and affection

joy and contentment

in one facial expression

smile can't be saved

they can only be spent

smiles can't be hoarded

or hidden or lent

each person's smile

is a signature move

to let others know

how much they approve

smile can melt hearts

and garner peace of mind

if someone smiles back at you

smile back in kind

when you look in the mirror

and see a gloomy frown

just stand on your head

your smile is up-side down

Forever

September's gentle air has blwon,
On the back of the October's chillier breezes,
And as I wander the house, alone, staring
Out of the empty windows , and watch the tress
Letting their gentle cargos fall, one by one,
Into golden heaps on the untended lawns,
That should have been bonfire bright,
With shining faces; I wonder:
Will you return, ever?

It was such a place of fun and laughter;
Of fellowship without competition;
Of love without destructive passion;
Of being, belonging, and hoping;
Now, my loneliness is crippling;
But I guess, in this life, nothing,
Not even our imaginings,
Can last forever.

Dont...

when the dark days take you,
and hide you deep within.
remember that i'm always here,
on the outside, looking in.

if i could set you free,
you know i'd gladly do so.
i send my cheery thoughts to you,
but somehow they never get through.

i try to vanquish she who holds you,
if only i could find a way.
but Lady Sadness holds on tight,
and she's such a hard foe to slay.

she pulls you deep within yourself,
and the tangles of self-doubt grow.
until you see just worthlessness,
not the wonderful person i know.

sometimes when i look into your eyes,
i see nothing but darkness there.
i wish that i could bring you back,
and the joy of living we'd share.

i hope that when your mood has lightened,
and you read this words, this plea.
take them deep into your heart,
and with them a small part of me.

I Will Catch Myself

drinking coffee now...
empty stomach...
coffee feels like battery acid...
boring day in school today...
...im really worried about my work...
zzz...a lot more to do...
feeling tired...
having a little hangover i think...
tired...i feel sick...
its 10.25...
been studying for 2 hours...
tired and sleepy...
but im as hell not going to stop...
haha, had a stupid thought...
trying to be as good as you, at my academic and social life...
i know i'll never be like you...
you're one of a kind...
night...


i know you're with me...

Wedding & Wine

had the wedding ceremony in the morning at my grandaunts house...
standing around for 30 minutes maybe?
then the bridegroom came...
all the cars honking like hell...
i was like-what the hell is that?
the gate was locked so te groom could not come in...
haha, he had to answer riddles...
haha, he couldnt so-no choice- he had to climb over the gate...
crazy crap...
after that...the ceremony...
eat...
went to my cousins house...
went to 1Utama to watch Surrogates...
met Angel and Mandy...
crazy nuts...
after that..
prepared for the wedding dinner...
reached the hotel 7...
had to stand around drinking for 45 minutes...
haha, i felt so awkward...
had to hold my cousins handbag the whole 45 minutes...
so funny...
haha...
had a lot of wine during the wedding...
my cousin got drunk...
cannot walk straight anymore...
i drank a respectable amount...
dinner was 3.30 hours long...
finished at 11.30...
took 30 minutes to reach BU3...
slept at 3...
woke up at 7 for church...
now...im here...its 12 am Monday...
going to study...
bye

Wedding

some pictures from the wedding...

i really enjoyed the wedding...
it was really great, i mean common its my aunty's wedding...

Aunty Rachel's Wedding Photo

Sharon, my pretty little cousin

the cousins AND uncle - from left to right.

Ben (looking gay as usual), Stephanie (looking splendid in her dress), John (ol' John), and Samuel (-.-''''')

Take This.

its the end of the week...
so much left to do...
anyways...
i had a good day in school today...
tired, but its been good...
a good week...
tomorrow is my aunty's wedding...
have to get up early... -.-''''
but i'll do it...
the good thing is that i'll be attanding a wedding...
i've never attended a wedding for so long...
good food yea?
hmm, anyways im excited...
meeting all my cousins and family...
have a good weekend guys...
byeeeeee...

Supernova!

Why So Serious?

i feel so down today...
im really tired as well...
...nothing very interesting today...
hmm, chelsea beat liverpool 2 -1...
aside from that...
nothing spectacular today...
school is boring...
zzz...
i gotta go..


Sick Puppies - All The Same
"Go ahead, say it-you're leaving..."

Blue Is The Colour!

good day today...
met a friend and her friend...
wow...
her friend is really something...
anyways...
nothing much today...
im listening to sugarland now...
catchy song...
okayy...now im having some red wine...
and im hearing lucky now...
awesome song...
drank the whole cup of wine in one shot...
im feeling warm...
very warm...
very, very warm...
hmm, about my day...
nothing much...
went to the book shop...
didnt buy any new books...
ohh yea...
PMR week...
pity my cousins...
cant wait for Saturday...
my aunts wedding...
i wanna eat...


anyways...
the new week is beginning...
definitely going to start praticing for the year end concert...
eighteen page play...
our longest yet...
going to do my guy thing...
CHELSEA VS. LIVERPOOL...
CHELSEA! BLUE IS THE COLOUR!

Enjoy The Show !

zzz...
have been listening to - Sick Puppies and Straylight Run...
nice songs...
very nice...
a little depressing...
to counter the depression...
i listen to Jason Mraz...
awesome songs he makes...
its saturday...
its been awhile since i last updated my blog...
had a good week in school...
had fun with my friends...
they're a great bunch...
a few people looked very down...
but the others kept me up...
XD...
anyways, its nearing the end of the term...
nearing the end of the term...
im so lazy now...
i cant help myself...
i did a lot of work this year....
i want to relax...
but i know i wont...
i still have a lot to do...
still a lot to prove to MYSELF...
enough of that...
cant wait for next week...
had a good audition for the acting yesterday...
suprisingly, some people did really well...
others not so good...
its very funny...
some of last years actors did really bad this year for the audition...
im bored...
cant wait for next year...
my last...
bring it on!!!
de...de...de
lovely...
im bored!!!!
im going...
bye bye...XD




You And I Both - Jason Mraz ~~~~ cheers!
song of the day...