Harfordshire?

its been a long time since i last updated...
haha, really long
things have been going good so far
up and down i must say
looking on the bright side of things...
its the holidays
but i'm still a little sick, not feeling 100%
but i'm still surviving...
Team B was on in church today...
*sigh*
Rachelle is leaving...
the girl who used to always take care and watch over me
she's leaving for the UK
for 1 year!
i know i'll miss her a lot
we've not been close much
but she used to take care of me so much
we used to be such great friends
:]
we had lunch today
with Ranee and Aunty Michelle
such a great family
its been so long since we last met up like that
Family Camp is coming up very soon
then, going for the Segamat Camp in Johor
Shing Yi asked me to go...
mom said its fine
so yea, i guess i'll be going eh?
long day, long day...
but it still isn't over


i've been reading a lot
Eragon fever has gotten to me again
i'm reading a lot from Shur'tugal Fan Fiction
it keeps me going while waiting for the 4th book...
i'm planning on writing my own story too
i hope its okay
but hell, i sure am
i have always wanted to and i will do it
didn't see Sam today
wait i did...
but we didn't chat up
its the holidays
maybe i should go play football with him
when is the cousins meeting up gathering anyways?
*sigh* so much to wait for
can't wait for the cousins to come again
and lets not forget uncle Ben :]
its never perfect without him

Your Smile

its 12.40
:]
i'm going to sleep soon
but i decided to post something first
*sigh*
i feel gloomy
i'm not feeling my usual confidence
no one to talk to about this...
i can handle this myself
school was pretty awesome today
nicole came back fro a visit :]
it was great
we did pretty much what we used to do
talking...talking...talking...
it was fun to be back like how it was
yet, it was different
hmm...



i'm feeling pretty okay
nothing super special today
i've learned to look at the little things and see much
today i saw her smile :]
what else?
i saw nicole too
i saw happy faces
i saw fun
actually it was a pretty good day
it was pretty good


my song for the rest of the week
Kings & Queens by 30 Seconds To Mars

-into the night
desperate and broken
the sound of a fight
father has spoken
we were the Kings and Queens of promise
we were destroyed by ourselves-

How Far

okayy
just came back not long ago from church
Parent's Nite 2010
it wasn't that bad
i thought it would have been really bad
haha, but it was pretty good
good to see everybody acting crazy
:]
well, well...
what can i say?
i had quite fun playing the games
5 games in total!
it was super fun
i didn't exactly play it
I WAS THE JUDGE
being a judge is fun
very very fun
haha, Darren was the head judge
and Oon Hui was the MC :]
they did well
hmm, tomorrow is Team B again
WOOT!
i think its going to be good


hmmm, forgetting all that
Monday is going to be awesomely busy
:]
work, work, work, magazine, and concert
the only things revolving in my head right now
haha, its going to be a lot
but hey, the more busy you are the more fun you have
that's my motto
the concert and magazine is going to be a blast
i can already imagine it
but...
the end of the year is coming so fast
it wasn't long ago when the year just begun
i can't believe how far we've gone...
how far we've gone indeed...

You!

YOU!!!
you ah...
sheesh, i don't usually speak like this...
but seriously...
its okay
i like teaching you
you should know that :]
besides, its not your fault
i'm just super lazy in school
i don't know why :]
haha, so no worries about your Math or my time

to be honest, your dog looks...interesting...
i won't say weird
cause i know you'll bite my head
but yea, interesting...
:]

have a good weekend too...
doing whatever you're doing...

0.0

my brothers are can be real monkeys sometimes...
they are monkeys most of the time
sheesh, insanity streaks...
okay
time for an update
haha :]
things have been going good
i did quite a lot of work today
enough work
respectable amount of work
not as much as last year
but hey, i'm slowly getting there
work is enjoyable
i've not done chemistry for 2 days :|
need help from my dad
...
which is going to be...
and interesting proposition
:] but hey, physics is going great
i'm finishing the last of my AOP books
haha :]
slowly but steadily
i've been doing good
if i keep it up
i'll be last year in no time
I CAN DO IT! WOOT!


amos coupled up...
O.O

Shoot Me

i should be shot for not doing any work today
in school to top that...
i don't know what happened...
i've lost something after nicole left
i lost the challenge
i lost the motivation
i lost what it means to be the best
...
damn it...
i need to find it
i NEED to...
*sigh*


things were pretty good today
just came back from badminton training
freaking tired...
haven't had dinner yet
so i'm starving too
things are not so bright - education wise...
like i said, i lost it...

socially, i'm doing very good
its been nice :]
really, it has...
friends are awesome, pastor karmen is awesome :]
probably the first time i said that...
hmm, she's been great...
or should i say, you've been great :]
i'm happy

one thing that has caught my attention...
the amos problem -.-'''
i guess i'll put my thoughts right here...
pooi yann and geat yee...

i'm concerned for amos...
they're messing with his feelings...
and to be frank, he thinks they're serious
or at least i think he thinks they're serious
i'm disgusted
i don't know how to describe it...
IMMATURE? DESPICABLE?
i can't find the word...

Lava Lamp

:]
what can i say?
its been going good today
i'm happy
just need to work harder today and tomorrow
hmmm, i did my Math LPT today
wow, if i don't pass...
i'm seriously stewpit -.-'''
i hope i pass
need to go to see my dentist!!!
arggh! my dad's so busy that i can't go
-.-''''''''''''''''''''''''
i NEED to go...
besides, i miss my dentist...
pffft, i don't know why i'm complaining...
haha, well, its 10.15 now
time to get started on my Physics eh?
sounds good to me...


i guess, i should update on my social status too eh?
haha, things have been going good socially
i think things have been going good between us
:]
that's what i think though
other than that...
everything is good...great in fact
i have been feeling very tired lately
but that's never stopped me before now has it?
:D
ohhh yea...
we're going to begin practicing for the end year concert soon...
haha, its going to be a blast...
i hope it is :)
believe it or not - i'm prepared to DANCE
haha.
i think i've officially lost my mind...

also, we're going to be moving into the new house soon
cleaned the windows that day :)
it was pretty fun
i love the windows...
its green in colour...
seriously...
it rocks!!!
will be moving in at the end of the month...
2 months from now...we'll be traveling with Paul & Steph
WOOT!
going to be freakin' FUN!
tired of posting already...
but a lot of stuff has been happening lately...
exciting and cool stuff too!
:)
well, i'll leave it for another post...
g'nights!





oh yea, should i get a lava lamp for my room?
0.0

Insomnia

monday...
a new week
new set of challenges
new obstacles to face
things have been going okay lately
i'm getting fatter, i think -.-'''
damn it...



i'm suffering from insomnia

Maybe, You're The One To Save Me

i thought i'd better post something
...
its been a few days since my last post
a lot has transpired since then
i don't exactly know what to say
things have been topsy-turvy and very confusing
i guess, i have to take care of all these things before they kill me...
the stress and pressure...and emotional baggage is taking its toll on me
i don't understand what i see...
i don't know what you're thinking
*sigh*
but its okay...
we'll just see how things work out :]
i guess, that's part of my emotional baggage
its good to get it off my chest

i felt like crap yesterday
well, i bet the others did also
but i got some counter for that
karlynn replied to my email yesterday
after 1 month...
wow, she's doing really good
:] can't blame her for not replying earlier
i'm just thankful she did reply when she did
hmm, i hope things continue getting better
i'm getting back to my studying stride like last year
last year i worked my ass off
i'm going to do it now
it was bad for my health
but it produced results
i know what i want
i know how to get it
i will get it


"and i said, maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me
and after all, you're my wonderwall..."
Oasis - Wonderwall

Thursdays

thursday...
tired...
really, really tired
:/
but today wasn't such a bad day
it was really good actually
angel was feeling quite happy today
which was a bonus for us...
haha
well, the rest were awesome too
darryl as usual...very energetic
mandy -- she was very busy today
its...quite common these days to see her very busy
its not a big surprise really...
hmmm...
there's been nothing new

to mia chai:
hmm, when i can't focus...
i close my eyes, take deep breaths...
and well, that helps me
music without words help a lot too
:]
i just finished reading her blog
haha...
i noticed a very interesting similarity between her picture and the cartoon girl
how very interesting...
just came back from the debate meeting
not long ago
well, it went pretty well
but the weather wasn't agreeable
so we had to cut things early
i don't think we prepared enough -.-'''
i think we're going to lose
great...
*sigh*



i'm going insane, that's for sure...
my head hurts a lot...

She Isn't Here

its been a long while since i last updated
things have been moving fast
its picking up
i feel better
more confident
lately, everything has been good
everybody in school has been great
hmm, wei man and wei kuen played frisbee with us...
based on what i saw, i think they enjoyed themselves
hmm, i've been studying hard...
i'm loving what i'm doing
and that's good

much has been on my mind lately too
well, i care for her a lot
so i've been feeling particularly great
she's not distracting though
and that's been an extra bonus for me :]


other things have not been so good...
i'm worried
karlynn has not replied my email for a long time
i don't know...i hope she hasn't forgotten me
i'd lose probably the best friend that i ever had
i don't want to lose that
*sigh*
just had one of the toughest training routine i've been through
i won't lie...it was tough
and the end result was...
hell, i feel useless...
its like i never get anything right
he's always better than me, stronger than me...
every aspect that counts...he's better than me
i won't give up
that's for sure
but...
i feel useless
no matter how hard i try to be the best
he's always 2 steps ahead of me...always
damn, i need to stop complaining...
but i just need a place to vent
someone to talk to...
and karlynn isn't here...

I Don't Know

its a saturday afternoon...
its 3.25
and i've been studying for the past 1 hour 30 minutes
not bad for a saturday
i mean, if i can reach my goal of studying 3 hours today
i should have no problems next year
work is going great...
i'm enjoying it
which is good to say
hmm, i'm also learning new things
understanding makes learning a joy
well, things have been moving very fast...
its nearly the end of the year
can't wait for the trip with Steph and Paul
we're going to have a great time together i think
haha...
hmmm, currently i'm doing LA
i don't know why i mentioned it...but yea, just saying
going to do some story reading after this...
it just rained...
which means chances of playing frisbee are pretty low
well, i'll roll out now
i'm bored...
wanna go back to my work
see ya around ;]

Bumblebee

its 7.30
i don't think i'll be able to go online later
so i'll just post now
okayy...so what's been new lately?
well, nothing much actually
its been going good...
very good i think
my work load has been going slightly up, i think
i'm doing more...
which is good...
so today, i'm gonna learn my chemistry and biology
okayy...sounds good eh?

hmmm, socially...everything is going great
haha...
mia chai is so scared to tell me who she likes :D
hmmm, well...what can i say?
just have to have courage!
hmmm, everything is going good!
i still like that girl a lot, you know
i just don't know how to proceed
i wanna take it to the next level
my friends have asked me to find a gf =]
i don't know whether they are just kidding or...
but i wonder whether its wise...
maybe, i should wait for next year?
but if i do, i don't know if she would feel the same for me next year
i mean, i know i'll still like her next year
=] yea, she's awesome...
hmmm, maybe i'll see what karlynn and steph says
they always know what's the best
hmm, i won't worry about it now
so i'll that to bed...
i'm off studying!



seriously, mia chai...Secrets isn't THAT nice.
i like Every Morning by Sugar Ray!
wooot!

I'm Doomed

covalent bonds...
ionic bonds...
metallic bonds...

i'm doomed

Drops Of Jupiter

when i get this feeling...
its hard for me to come back down...
Train - It's About You

sick...again
sorethroat and a horrible cough
haha, nice way to start the week
sarcasm - it rocks!
hmmm, went to church this morning
it was good
met with Eggie and Adrie :)
hmm, after church i went to Paul's house
it was good to see him again
its always good to see him AND steph
she's the sane one of the two
haha...
hmmm, we went out for a movie - SALT
steph enjoyed it, paul didn't, i was...unsatisfied to say the least
i think steph likes the suspense of not knowing
and i like closure
went to McD's for tea
bumped into Angel&bf
sheesh, everytime i go out with Paul - i ALWAYS bump into her
Angel was wearing a very interesting shirt
Pink shirt with the superman thing on it
SCARY!
ahh, it was a great day today
i enjoy talking to Steph
we talked about who we are, what we want to be
and of course who we like...
i guess, she's right
we don't always get what we want
but we can make the most of what we have
i'm happy with what i have
thanks steph! :D
i love you! haha.
i could never live without her
now i can't wait for the trip
4 days with Paul and Steph
that'll be absolutely fun
and by then i should ave my voice
i didn't have my voice today
she couldn't understand me :|
but its okayy...
we talked a lot anyway
haha...
i hope i get better
my eye has been red the whole day
everyone's asking why its like that
i don't know why okay?


i'm happy with what i have
and i don't mind it staying the way it is now
i should stay that way