I Could Really Use A Wish Right Now

saturday! :)
its great.
well, if you're well
i woke up with a crazy sorethroat again
and a slight fever -.-'''
*sigh*
tomorrow will be another long day
i'll be staying at Paul's house till 6
talk with Steph *SMILES*
hmmm, what can i say?
its been a great week
i seriously need to start studying again though
i'm such a lazy ass
so much things on my mind though
but i'm sorting it out
hmm, one thing in particular is my feelings for a friend of mine


i like her very much
but...it seems to be going nowhere
every time it starts to get a little hot - things would cool down again
and then it would be like nothing happened
what can i do...
i can say we're pretty close
we have a...platonic relationship, i guess
hmm, i wish it could be more sometimes
i'm 15, and i think i'm mature enough to handle a relationship
but...i don't know
i don't know a lot of things
like how she feels about me :|
ahhh, well, typing this is giving me a headache
but i need to get it off my chest so i can focus on whats important

well, i've said what i needed
good night
:)
i'm going to study hard from now on
i promise myself.
those are the worse kinds of promises to break