Beautiful One

its monday morning. :) it feels good to be home after so long staying in KL. yea, it definitely feels good to be back. haha. i'm definitely going to fix my skype thingy now. hahahaha. hmm, today and tomorrow will be my rest days...on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday i have to go down to PJ again. so yea, busy busy...and tiring. stayed up till late night yesterday after i came back from PJ. :]

saw Shing Yi and Melissa again after a long time. they haven't been joining our team for quite awhile. :) so yea, its good be back with Team B again. i've been drained physically and mentally now. i need to rest a lot : i dont feel very good...

hmm, i can't wait for evening...i wanna go running and skipping. i've not been doing that for a long time. i miss it. :D my mother just left the house, joash is having his piano exam in Rawang. good luck baby brother!

i hope everything goes smoothly this week. i've got a lot to do. and i have to do it well. ;) i miss someone too. its hard to focus on everything when i'm thinking of that person :) ahh well, i don't mind thinking about that person...and i've got to say, you looked really really good on skype. hmm, what have you been thinking about? don't think too much alright? :) well, you've got to get out of your room more. emo isn't fun! :D take care...

it was nice to see you again. hahaha. i've got to go now. preparations! :)

nothing will ever change that...

Vast Voyage

i'm back. and yes, i had an awesome time. :D we had loads of fun with little kids. naughty kids, big kids, little kids, good kids, and cute kids...every type of kid was there. haha. had loads of songs and activities. i'll tell you, i'm totally exhausted right now. i'm really, really tired. :

hmm, Youth Camp in 2 weeks. practice is tomorrow. hell, i'm gonna bummed when i get back. i need to exercise. haha. i got a scale in my room now. :D really gonna need to use it. i feel fat. : real real fat :

we're gonna rock tomorrow. its been a power packed week. next week is gonna be power packed too. i can't wait for the week before Youth Camp. i just wanna rest quietly. read a book, lie down and drink some cold orange juice.

well, i'm done. tomorrow my team is ON. more work for me. : *sigh* the sacrifieces we make. but at the end of the day, its worth it.

Into Your Eyes

into the night. desperate and broken.

finally had some fun today. went out for badminton training today. it was good. met some old classmates too. :] it was great seeing you guys again. hmm, maybe we should go out one day? hmmm, preparing for tomorrow. i'm not prepared at all. i've been...distracted. got my mind set out for next year.

my mother asked whether i would like to go for English lessons from this lecturer in Damasara next year. phew. a lot of travelling up and down. i'll have to stay at my cousins house for most of the week. :] i have...mixed emotions on this. on one hand, staying in Kl is fun. i've got my cousins. but on the other hand, i'll be far away from my family, friends, and everything that i've come to love...

well, i don't think worrying too much helps anyone...i probably will have to go down and stay there next year. : i really need the extra classes if i am to score good grades.

i don't want to start worrying now. i've got time. i'm going to use it wisely. i need to start studying. my mom is right. she's...almost, always right. haha.

into your eyes. hopeless and taken.

we stole our new lives.

with blood pain.

in defence of our dreams.

Insecure

its been awhile. :] its good to be back online after so long going off. i hate cables and i hate the indians who live down my lane -.-''' anyways, again, its good to be back online. facebook and my stories...ahh, this is a good life.

well, things have been really crazy. i mean, i've got ltos on my mind. VBS is this THURSDAY. crap. big big crap. i really need to get ready and prepared. after VBS then i'll have worship practice. on the...28th of Novemeber and the 2nd and 4th of December. :] busy busy. but hey, its fun. i enjoy it.

hmm, 've been going crazy these past few days. i really need to do something for the holidays. i've already cleaned my room. so tomorrow, i'm gonna start...studying. : my mother is forcing me. this holiday is going to kill me *sigh*



can't sleep at night. well, that happens to me sometimes. i don't know why you can't. i hope it gets better soon. well, when i can sleep at night...i think back on things. remember those awesome memories that you have. just let the tension drain out of you. don't let your mind wander around...keep it close to happy thoughts and feelings... ;]


DOM IS AWAKE! its good to hear that. really good. i hope he gets out of the ICU soon. i wanna visit him. *sigh* its really really good to hear that.


well, that's that. nothing much lately. if there were something interesting. i would be the first to post :) don't you doubt it. haha. take care.

I Can't Save You

okay. i've completed my songlist for Youth Camp. *sigh* i'm too stressed out over it. and OMGOSH! school concert is this saturday. and we're not half ready. it sucks you know. the feeling of uncertainty. Pastor Karmen isn't here. that's the worst part of it. i think she provides the CALM and CONFIDENCE. okay. she just called me. Pastor Karmen just called ._.

she sounds very american? i mean, british. haha. she asked me how we all are doing. how is our preparations for the concert. now i'm even more worried. *sigh* this is crazy.

i hope you reply me quicker. i would really like to visit your brother and yourself. :( i'm really sorry about how things are going. if there was anything i could do, i would...*sigh* i'll continue praying for him. have faith nic! its hard, that much i know...but what else can we do?

._. *sigh* i'm stressed. i can't relax...can't focus. there is so much to do, and so little time.


i've been saving, this last words for one last miracle...
but now i'm not sure...

Picteresque

okayyy. now things have been way interesting. first off, the bass was okay when Uncle Rock checked it. so i'm cleared to play, thank you very much. =) then i learned the sickest bass tab for the song "My Redeemer Lives!" heck, its awesome. i love playing it over and over again.

Miss Chai won the Sunshine Girls Search. its not surprising. we always knew she could win. =D haha. she's elated. took her pictures in the newspaper to school today! its her time now! =) we're happy for you. and good job too!

i don't know how Nic is doing. she had her quiz today. i hope you did fine. i hope your brother is fine.

about other things...well, i've been pretty busy lately. Sunday was a long day. had meeting for this weeks duty. then after that for the VBS. meeting was 5 hours. -.-''' i'm so tired now. thennnn, stayed over for awhile at Ernest's house while my parents had their meeting...long day.

VBS is in two weeks. we're rushing like nuts. after VBS, i've got Youth Camp worship practice. this is the worse. its driving me insane. i'm so nervous. my first time leading. i'm also very excited! worship this year is going to be a blast. we're going to make it happen with God's help of course. ohhh yea, Mandy and Pooi Yee are coming for camp. Darryl also, i hope. this is going to be really interesting...haha!

so basically, that's whats been new with me. nothing much and yet, so much going on. i'm bombarded and tired. but its great. i love feeling busy. i love the excitement. so much better than doing nothing. well, i've got to go now. catch up with you guys later...

For You

...
this goes out to you.
i hope you're okay nic.
and your brother too.
i've been praying for you guys.
its hard when you can do nothing
but i guess, we have to accept it
place the situation into His hands
perhaps i could come and visit you someday?
its been so long
and as a friend, i want to be there for you
know that, we'll all stand by you
take care nic.

There May...But

aren't we a great group?

haha.

:] its been amazing what we've been through together.

you guys are the world to me :)

its been awhile since i've updated.

hmm. nothing mcuh actually.

everything is going pretty smooth - in school and outside.

we're enjoying our last moments together eh? ;]

i've gottten my list ready for camp i think.

just need to send it out.

haha.

practice is awesome :D

hmm, loads of DT test in school lately

which i admit, is pretty boring...BUT

its relaxing at the same time

tomorrow is Science :] i lurve science

school has been bustling with activity

preparations for the concert and all

we're nearly there aren't we? ;)

hmm. its been pretty boring lately

i've been doing lots of work

building momentum for next year perhaps

Maroon 5 is screwed up

Mandy Chai thinks her smile is fake! why? o_o

i don't think its fake.

in fact, its pretty original.

i'm stuck with nothing...

such a boring feeling

Darryl's book is so draggy

and i don't want to read Narnia anymore

*sigh*

im suffering.

ahh. miss chai :(

i'm sorry for how i treated you that day

it was terrible

i'm sorry.

there may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning ;)

Running After You

okay. i'm stuck here with nothing to do. not surprising really. tomorrow i'm on with another team. so yea, its gonna be interesting. i don't really know my new team mates. only ernest and oon hui.

i'm tired and i'm bored. i don't want to sleep cause i don't feel very good right now. *sigh* i've got a long year ahead of me next year. do you think i can cope with it? i guess i just have too. i've been waiting for your reply karlynn. its been awhile.

had the practice session today. it was pretty darn good! :D i was really stoked. we all had a lot of fun together. it was awesome! just need more practice for one song. hmm, i'm choosing my songs now. probably taking Take It All and Running After You. its great. looking for some good transition songs now. i'm really excited for camp. my first time leading.

now to some other things. :] it was great talking with you yesterday. i've not felt this happy in a long time. haha. i'm really blessed. i'm feeling great. i probably need to get of the computer more. need to study more now. i'm using the computer a bit too much. :]

really. sleep more. i don't think eyebags are very "charming". you don't want to know what you look like with eyebags. :D

To Know Your Name

2 more weeks before the split

we'll be a different bunch then eh?

well, we just have to make the best of what we've got

and what we've got is another 2 weeks together

hell, i know i'd miss angel like crap eh?

haha.

she's been awesome this whole year

very interesting sitting beside her

:]

preparing for the concert and camp now

youth camp is stressful stuff i'll tell you

leading worship

and choosing the songs are hard work

i think we should take a back seat now

*sigh*

maybe, just stop for awhile and see where we are heading

i don't know whether you feel it

but there's a lot of tension between us isn't there?

well, i'm off to do some work for camp

cheers! :]