I Stand In Awe Of You...But You Don't See That

so its a new week...
*sigh* things are so wrong sometimes...
i feel...torn...
its funny...i despise my incompetence and lack of ability...
and no, im not in depression...
its just everything is so glum and sad...
just read Karl's email today...
she's down too...and im...well, i dont know what to feel...
everything is wrong...the way seems lost...or maybe its twisting and turning...
and i feel...what the hell do i feel? i wouldnt know even if my life depended on it...
miserable? i dont know...i just wanna be alone...
in a quiet place...
but we never get what we want do we?
school sucks...my LPT's are shit...
i cant seems to score a good score...
now i know what Karl meant by under-achiever...
i TOTALLY feel like it...
its funny how i tell her not to feel like an under-achiever...when im feeling like one...
im a freaking hypocrite...
disappointing, frustrating, and downright saddening...
thats what my grades are like...
*sigh* i feel like breaking something...