Nobody

freaking tired today...
tried to sleep in school...
i couldnt...
tried to sleep at home...
i couldnt...
i'm sick...
but im feeling good...
i feel weak...
i feel broken...
i feel free...
i dont feel anything anymore...
i cant feel anymore...
i dont want to feel anymore...
feelings are an illusion...
they blind you...
they move you to extremes...
i'm confused...
i'm sure...
i doubt...
i know...
i'm lost...
i've found a way...
i've strayed...
now im lost again...
i've given up...
i'm still holding on...
i've done it...
i'm happy...
faced it...
conquered it...
yet i dont see victory...
perhaps its time...
perhaps its not meant to succeed...
perhaps it was all a picture painted for the moment...
perhaps its not real...
perhaps i failed...
did i?
i dared myself to move...
was it enough?
i left my fears behind...
taken the path...
did i do it right?
what went wrong?
did i screw up?
nobody said it was easy...
no one ever said it would be this hard...
take me back to the start...
running in circles...
chasing shadows...
hopes that dont exist...
chasing myself...
i cant do it...
i wont...
i was just guessing...
numbers and figures...
pulling the puzzles...
apart...





nobody said it was easy...
no one ever said it would be so hard...
~Coldplay - The Scientist~